genkigemini

LOL

Yay! It is not over until the af shows or the docs preggo test says no, right?

Chellebelle

EXACTLY!! One thing I have definately learnt through all this TTC - ANYTHING is possible and it is never over until the evil shows.

You wouldn't believe how many stories I have heard about how people believe that they have no chance in a particular month - then get a bfp.

SOOO lots of

genkigemini

Thankies, Honey!

sjnams

Hi Thanks for popping by my journal!

Just been reading your journal!! All I can say is I never realised just how lucky I should feel to have any sort of cycle no matter how irregular!! I really do hope and pray for you that this is your year!! Your Doctor sounds really fab and its fantastic that you are now (hopefully) getting the help you need!! I wish you and your DH all the best and look forward to reading about you getting a

On a side note....Are you a McD's store manager?? I got the feeling from your journal entries when you mention work that that is what you do (think you may have referred to it once and also you called your workers crew members!) Just wondering cos I worked as a shift runner in McD's for 9 years.

genkigemini

LOL... yup! I am a restaurant manager for McD's. LOL I never really thought this is where I would end up but the pay is good and the benefits are FANTASTIC! All my fertility stuff is paid for like any medical condition due to the insurance being under IL jurisdiction. YAY! (The state of Alaska doesn't pay for crap. LOL)

LOL... good call on the crew member thing. LOL

Thanks for the dust and the support! Stop by anytime and I will keep an eye on you as well! ^_^

genkigemini

My DH and I very rarely argue but this morning he got really mad at me. Finally he let on that he feels that I am not telling him my feelings. I told him that I felt blown off after my doctors appointment. I said I wanted to have a pity party and he kept saying was to focus on the positive and that hurt my feelings. I said that it was like he didn't even care that the Clomid didn't work the first go around and OMG...

My DH was so upset. He was like, don't you think the whole reason I was focusing on the positive was to keep us both going. Don't you think I was upset? etc... Then my DH cried and in the 10 years we have been together, I can count on one hand the number of times that he has even cried in front of me so I started bawling. I feel so awful.

As shitty as it sounds, I took his words regarding that appt at face value and I didn't even stop to think that he might be upset too. I was so focused on being shitty by myself that I completely forgot to consider his feelings and I just bawled. I mean I still feel awful.

On one hand, I am so glad to know that he really is as emotionally invested in this as I am but on the other hand, I feel horribly shitty for not realizing that before this. I am a bad wife... However, I have learned a very important lesson and next month, I hope it will be a for both of our sakes.

genkigemini

Updated my sig again

The reason I keep using Sailor Moon images is that my DH has called me Usagi for nearly 10 years. He thinks I am very much like the Sailor Moon character. LOL

miel

you are not a bad wife...
thinking of you sweetie

diva4180

You aren't a bad wife at all hun, you talked it through and that's what's important. Next month WILL work, you deserve it after all this time!

I love the new sig, I think it's beautiful!

genkigemini

Thanks guys! Yeah, DH and I talked it out and things are fine now but I just can not let myself forget this lesson you know? I have very selfish tendencies some times and I have to remember that everything is not always about me.

This weekend is the end of my vacation. I am back to work on Monday *pout* I could never go back and stay happy. LOL Alas, my insurance through work is what pays for my fertility stuff so it is a necessary evil. LOL

Thanks ladies for the support.