Coffee

Hey hun, just been reading your journal and you sound like you are having a really rough time. Hope you are OK? I guess some patches are just rougher than others eh? It's so unfair that women are the ones who have to have all the pressure of periods and TTC, and have raging hormones at the same time! I had a moment like that last month - only for a day - but i couldn't stop crying. I felt a bit hysterical actually, like i was losing it! Was fine the following day, but it weirded me out a bit that i could get sooooo emotional.
We're all the same too aren't we - love our husbands so much we don't want to see them upset so we put a brave face on and act like it doesn't matter.... but of course it does.
Don't ever feel alone. All the lovely ladies on BnB are here for support and you are more than welcome to P.M. me if you ever need a vent. I am sure all the other ladies feel the same too and would like you to P.M. them too if you ever need a shoulder. Noone should ever feel lonely xx

genkigemini

Thanks so much! I have done some research and found that Provera can cause terrible mood swings and depression so I am thinking that these emotions can be directly linked to Provera. Ugh! Well... at least I have a reason because I am a pretty upbeat person and I am not really overly emotional for long periods of time because I bounce back quick. Oh well... I am just going to take it one day at a time.

I ended my pills on Wed and they say you should get af within 4-10 days of ending your pills so I I just wait.

Thanks for the support

Samo

Aww Sarah all those pills you pop must be a rollercoaster ride, im sorry! I'm still wishing and praying good things will be coming your way! Just need some positive thoughts and a big

You know if you still need that venting text buddy ;D i'm always here for you! Delaware isn't the largest state in the union *cough*

genkigemini

Thanks honey! I really appreciate it. Today has been a rough day but I am doing a little bit better and a little bit better so that is good!

I am sending you a PM,

SwissMiss

Hi Sarah, I'm just catching up I'm so sorry you're having such a rough time, those pills are sending you for a real loop!!! God, your bfp, when it comes and it WILL, will be legendary!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thinking of you and sending some AF your way hon!!!!

genkigemini

AHHHHHHHHHHHH Thanks, Wendy. You are such a doll!

So, today I slept almost 15 hours, called in sick to work and spent some time with my DH. I am feel A LOT better. I feel like sleep and a sanity break is what was needed. I am still a little over emotional but my state of mind is so much better.

I looked DH in the eye yesterday and said, I feel like I am losing my mind and I meant it from the bottom of my heart. Now I do not feel that way and I am confident things will get better.

Thanks to everyone for caring and their kind words. It really means a lot to me!

You ladies are the best!

genkigemini

Ah, I feel refreshed! I really do.

Seriously I am praying AF comes soon because I never want to take Provera again. My husband is actually really surprised by how upset I got this week because he says that I have not been outwardly as bitchy as I have been in the past with other pills but this time I internalized it all.

This will sound so crazy but if I had emotional issues normally, I think that pill would have been a really dangerous thing for me to be on. I mean, I emotionally felt as screwed up the other day as when I was raped as an 18 year old virgin. I mean I felt THAT awful.

If I must take it again, I will take a vacation from work. I don't really think the emotions had anything to do directly with feeling pressure about TTC because right now I really don't feel so much pressure. I just really felt that I hated myself for about 24 hours. Honestly, it scared the shit out of me.

I know others have taken it with no side effects so it is so weird but oh well... I am doing better and I am happy again.

I swear every time I go to the restroom I look at the paper all hopeful and them I am like, Damn! Nothing yet. LOL Oh well... It will come soon. I am confident! ^_^

Love you all for supporting me!

genkigemini

Honestly... google should be banned. I just did a search to see what would happen if I didn't get my period from the Provera and it doesn't look good. Boooo! But, I will keep my head up and not worry until I go 2 full weeks.

Today is only 7 days since I finished Provera so I am praying and hoping and praying some more. :s

polo_princess

STOP googling!! its dangerous

dont worry it will come soon hun!! be positive!!

genkigemini

It came! It came! My period started! WOOHOO!!! Clomid, here I come!!!! ^_^