Awwwww ladies!!! I love you all so much!!!
*whispers*
The line got darker...Dare I believe this??!?! My God, I'm so terrified! This morning the

would be due... I woke up at 4 am (HELLO!?!?) to pee, did the test then - the line took a bit longer, maybe 4-5mins, but its DEF pink and DEF darker than the first one! ... I dunno I dunno! Then couldn't get back to sleep for feeling

(already!??! uh oh...) and restless - so @Tish: although I know you're right, I didn't temp 'cause it would've been WAY off... Tomorrow maybe... Yeah, then at about 6.40am, just after my alarm, I started feeling the ol' bowels moving (sorry for the tmi) and had a proper panic attack 'cause that's just what happens when AF shows up... I get a dodgy stomach.. But she didn't! and now I've just been to the loo and got me some creamy cm in my pants! ohmyohmyohmy!! This MAY really BE it!!
I will now search me out a digi at lunch time (or use Lisa's wonderful services!

) and hold out 'til Wed or Thurs to use it just to be sure... I'm so scared this one won't stick either!!!!
Just to reply to you loverlies:
@Magic: we got married in late September, so October is the technical ttc start month... but DH had cold feet for AAAAGES, so I think you could say maybe January 2008 we started REALLY goin' for it... 7 months... but feels like a lifetime, 'specially with one m/c in there!!!
@sjnams:

I am sorry about that! THANK YOU for reading everything thru, geez, I don't even have the patience to read my own journal thru again!!!
Sending you all

- seriously, billions of them! and asking for some sticky

in very large quantities...
Trixie, Miel, Tansey, Omi: pleeeeeeeeeeeeease let this be your month too!!! ShiningStar is right! We gotta make room for the new generation!

(you're a real sweety, hon!!)
xxx
p.s. Know why I'm terrified? This is looking a little too much like last time: a

and then I go on hols... We leave next Tuesday for Greece... surely it won't happen AGAIN!?!?