Girls, if I ever needed you, its now!!!!!!!!!

IT CAME UP NEGATIVE!?!?! I can't believe it, I wanna die!!! These are different tests than you all have, the results aren't "pregnant", "not pregnant" but a big digi + or - ... and I got the - !!!! I have no idea what the hcg threshold is tho... maybe ill go check...
The only thing holding me together right now is the fact that I showed the other two cheapy tests to my 2 best friends in the office, and they BOTH saw the line, 100%!! And just now I tore the cb test apart again, and once again, a line, but soooo faint I can't even get a good pic of it!!! But ITS THERE, I SWEAR!!!!... ?!!?!? Im panicking to say the least...
Then again, I am only 12 dpo... right??? and i was drinking water all afternoon, my pee wasnt very yellow... Tomorrow morning is the big one... ACK! how will I sleep!?! Im trying so hard to stay +ve but MAN, this is killing me!!!
I hope you dont take me for a drama queen, Im honestly NOT!!! A billion zillion

ladies, you're all soooooo wonderful!!!
'til tomorrow then... *sigh*