chefamy1122

Well, I ordered 2 boxes of preseed yesterday and a basal therm. and should be receiving it all within the next few days. The progesterone still has not brought AF down for a visit, if I do not get my period by Friday I am going to call my Dr and see what she wants to do. It is so weird that I am actually looking forward to getting AF. I am pretty sure I will be ordering my CBFM soon as well.... taking small steps so I don't freak out my poor hubby!
I don't know why I do it to myself, but I got all worked up last night and had my own little "pity party" and a good cry. It made me feel better, and I know I am just starting getting SERIOUS about TTC, but it is just so frustrating sometimes when I see friends and family members having no problems at all getting pregnant, and there are so many of us that have trouble when we want something SO BAD.

chefamy1122

nothing really new to report today, other than the fact I have been really, really hungry lately. I am not sure if it is b/c of the progesterone or the vitamins, or maybe a combination of the 2. Either way, I have been eating like crazy lately, but trying to eat healthy stuff and not junk. I definitely need to watch myself, b/c I am supposed to be trying to LOSE weight, not gain any.

Still no AF yet. I only have a few days of the progesterone left, so I am not sure what my dr is going to want to try next. I know when I was 19, it took 3 months of progesterone plus a cycle of premarin to bring my period down, so she may have to do that. I am getting really anxious to start on the 2nd round of Clomid, but I have to remember to pace myself and not get worked up over stuff, b/c this cycle may not work either...NO-- THINK POSITIVE AMY!! That is much easier said than done......

chefamy1122

Well, I got excited last night b/c I got "that feeling" I get when AF is about to show up, PLUS my boobs were killing me, but I woke up this morning and nothing was there. I guess I should have known better, but I really thought it was going to be there when I woke up today, then I would be able to start round 2 of Clomid next week. At least DH is coming back home tonight from his business traveling, so there is some good news.

NeyNey

Aww, it's a strange feeling when you actually want AF to show isn't it? I've been there before.
Best of luck with the round 2 of clomid. I think my Dr is going to try me on this soon (still waiting on the millions of test results) so I've head a lot of good things about it, so thats exciting.
So how many DPO are yo now?

Best of luck next cycle!!

chefamy1122

thanks for the good luck wishes.
To tell you the truth, I honestly don't even know when the last time I ovulated was... according to the bloodwork from the last 2 months, I did not ovulate, and before that my cycle was very screwed up. I had stopped taking my birth control pills off and on with the hopes that I would magically become pregnant... Yes I know it was not the smartest thing to do, I should have just let my dr do her thing and monitor it, but it was so easy for my friends and family members to concieve, I guess I just hoped for the best. It was hard for me to come to grips that it will be difficult to have a baby, b/c it is something I have been wanting for so long. The last AF that I got was on 12/11, only lasted for about a day or 2, and that was brought on by bc pills. I took the Clomid on days 5-9, bloodwork on day 3, 11 and 21. When my dr called me with the results from day 21 to tell me I did not ovulate, I was crushed. I have started keeping track of things in a planner to make sure I stay on top of stuff, and I am waiting for me basal thermometer (and preseed) to come in.
It is so frustrating, but finding this forum has helped me more than I could have ever imagined.

chefamy1122

I feel a little better today. I spoke to my doctors office and I guess I misundertood her last time. I have to wait 14 days after I take my last progesterone pill to wait to see if my period comes, so I still have 2 WHOLE WEEKS to wait. I don't know if I can wait that long..... guess I have to learn how to be patient.

chefamy1122

I had some weird cramping yesterday, but no sign of AF yet. This is going to be a loooooong 14 days. For some reason, I really don't think that the progesterone is going to work, but I am trying to think positive.

Wobbles

A sprinkle of for your TTC journey.

chefamy1122

I got my hopes up again last night that AF was about to show up, b/c I had that "rumbling in my guts" that I usually get when it is about to start, but nothing yet. I guess my ovaries are just confused! I am getting really anxious to start on the next round of Clomid!

chefamy1122

well, it has been a few days since I have written a journal b/c there is really nothing new to report. still no stupid period. I am getting so frustrated and depressed. why does it have to be so hard for some people, and other people can get pregnant when they are not even trying? to top it all off, DH is out of town. I may just pour myself a glass of wine, watch some tv and go to sleep.