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miel · Dec 27th, 2007, 19:00 PM

i can't wait to know!!! keep up posted!
good luck!

avistar · Dec 28th, 2007, 16:22 PM

12/28 CD36 4 days late according to 32 day cycle.

I tested this morning and it was BFN. I don't really feel that bad about it...I am disappointed though. My nipples are sensitive again today which happens before AF for maybe a week at the longest. Only have light cramps in the evenings. Should I even bother testing again??? I just want AF to get here!!

I just feel like my cycles are not regular and that my timing must be off.

I get really frustrated sometimes and other times I feel okay about it since there are things I would like to do that I can't with a child. But really, having a baby out weighs them all. I guess I just need to be more patient and relaxed about it all. It really gets me because everyone STILL always asks about us having a baby...like it is so easy just to want and then have. I saw another old friend with her baby, and it made me feel so abnormal, like there is something wrong with me....BUT I am trying not to worry so much about it. I find relief in believing that it hasn't happened for a reason...and to just enjoy life as it is.

CapitalChick · Dec 28th, 2007, 17:08 PM

Hey there!
Sorry to hear about the BFN....although, the truth is that "it ain't over 'til the fat lady sings"...if you know what I mean!
All hope is not lost for this cycle until you feel that "squish" in your knickers (Sorry for that visual...)

Anyway, it's great to hear that you're pursuing activities that you couldn't with a child. You might as well make the most out of the time you're TTC, right? That really is the best attitude, and I'm really pushing myself to keep that in mind too.

I know how hard it is, though....I had a bit of a meltdown last night. Today is my birthday (25) and the thought of having to celebrate just made me lose my mind. My husband and I are taking a three week holiday (exploring the middle east!) in the next couple of weeks, so I'm really hoping that the vacation will make my TWW go by very quickly!

You'll recall that we're on the same (or similar) cycle, so if it doesn't happen for either of us in the coming days/weeks, we can continue to work through this stuff together.

Finally, I think you should test again in 48 hours, if AF still hasn't arrived. It could be good news!!!
I'm rooting for you!
Best of luck!

avistar · Dec 28th, 2007, 19:44 PM

thank you so much

I sent you a pm.

FJL · Dec 28th, 2007, 20:12 PM

Have just pm'ed you hun

avistar · Dec 29th, 2007, 05:07 AM

12/28 CD 36 continued

Did not have any cm today...light cramping started around 5-6:00pm. Still have some, it is like pressure more so than cramping...

So here I wait...nipples are slightly sensitive but it is not noticeable.

avistar · Dec 29th, 2007, 17:03 PM

12/29 CD37

Woke up, no cramps, nipples sensitive, took cheapie internet htp with fmu and it was another BFN. Face is breaking out. Last night I could feel some 'stretching' down there, but it could have just been gas, since I was gassy last night

I think today I am going to buy some evening primrose oil.

avistar · Dec 30th, 2007, 02:23 AM

12/29 CD 37 continued...

I did buy some evening primrose oil today that I plan on starting whenever I get AF! If I get AF. I wanted to start parsley tea tomorrow but decided that I should at least test some more for preg to be certain that I am not preg because the tea can have negative effects. I just want this cycle to be OVER arghha! I was just talking with my SIL about being late and how frustrating it is when preg is not the cause.

I have cramping again that started around 4-5:00 again. Maybe it is just the time I notice it. It has that pulling sensation again too. The pulling and tight cramping is very low...right above where my pub hair line would be and in the outter areas where my ovaries are. But I am gassy again...why??? I have been eating different foods...oh well. Boobs are not sore, nipples are not sore...

avistar · Dec 30th, 2007, 23:43 PM

12/30 CD38 6 days late

Some cramping during the day, with strong pains that came and went. Nipples sore in the morning again, and went away...again! Not really any cm...again. Waiting to take another test in a few days if AF doesn't come.

I tried to evaluate Oing based on a longer cycle. I punched in some numbers: first day of last menstrual period was 11/23/07 & based it on a 40 day cycle (which I will hit come new year!). It stated that I would be most fertile between 12/16---12/21. Based on a 39 day cycle I would be fertile 12/15---12/20. I did bd on 12/17 and 12/21. Took two opks on 12/24 that were positive and bd 12/24. So I have no idea when I O'd this month! But hope that I covered all bases

Bd'd early evening.

NeyNey · Dec 30th, 2007, 23:49 PM

- I'm still crossing my fingers for you sweetie

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