HI guys,

Well most of you know me already but for those who dont, here is a re cap...

Im 29 years old and Jase my hubby is 28, we both live in south wales with our 3 children, Charlie-Jane 8, Ethan 7 and Coby 9 months.

We have been TTC number 4 since April this year, We got pregnant in june, but i sadly misscarried at 9 weeks in July. We have been trying ever since but with no luck...and to be honest im terrifed its not going to happen.
I keep thinking of things like...my weight, I put on alot since having Coby, maybe i need to lose it before i can catch again. Also, i know misscarriages leave scaring on your womb, this was my 3rd, what if its going to be hard for me to catch now becuase of that? I also have mild PCOS whihc makes my cycles loing, so each showing of AF is a real downer coz i know i have another long cycle ahead of me.

Me and Jase both said we dont wnt anymore babies after we are 30, so i feel time is running out for me as im 30 next year. I also feel bad for moaning coz i know there are others out there who are worse off than me.

Had some spotting the past few days, really thought i was prengant this month, just 'felt' it. after a couple of days of stopping and starting, AF finialy kicked in about 2 hours ago, still very light, but defo here.

So its back to another long month of trying, my next testing date is on the 26th November, seems a life time away trying to stay postivie but its hard, I caught first time on all 3 of my children so its a shock that its not happening for me this time round.

anyway, i have waffled enough, its been good to get my feelings out, they have been knocking about in my head for a few days now.

will post updates as the month goes on.

xxx

Its stopped again!!!!! really stumped, have no idea whats going on, i think i might take my temp in th emorning, just to see what it is, might give me a better idea of what my body is doing.

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took my temp today, it was 36.3, the day before it was 36.1 so i will take it again tomrorow to see if its still riseing, if it is then i can only guess that it was ovulation bleeding coz its stopped again now.

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You've had a harsh last 2 months Layla this HAS to be the end of it all & your on your normal path again!

Good luck & hurry up :wink: x

temp was 36.2 this morning, so its dipped a bit, still dont know whats going on, my AF, all spotting has totaly gone.

been feeling very emotional the past 2 days, crying at silly things like..eastenders! im hard as nails when it comes to sad soap stories but had a cry with sonia last night! lol

Also had heartburn yesterday and felt dizzy and sick. went all shakey and had to eat something sweet. i hate it coz im imiagineing all these things are linked with pregnancy, when really it could be just stress.

pregnancy tests came this morning, so i will wait will after the weekend and test if AF still hasnt shown up.

not sure wether to carry on with my temps to see how they go or wether to leave it. guess i will deicde in the morning.


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been feeling very dizzy, shakey and sick again today.....

i hate waiting!

xxx

im not 100% sure, but i first started spotting on friday and got the sharpe pains on my right hand side.

then spotted on and off saturday and sunday.

so IF i ovulated, i think it would have been friday, which would make me 5 DPO

i am going to test on monday to see if anything shows up.

Feeling very funny tho, alot like i didnt on all 3 of mine, very dizzy, shakey and weak, sick, but i dont feel ill if that makes sense lol Also, i keep running to the loo coz i feelt like AF arrived...but nothing, just lots of CM and i had that on all of them too

it could be stress causeing it but its hard not to get my hopes up

Temp dropped a bit this morning tho so they are not going up as i would expect

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Layla, just try and stay as neutral as possible, and I so have everything crossed for you for Monday babe!!! xx