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bambikate · Dec 20th, 2007, 17:19 PM

Hello Mrs, looking forward to hearing what the psychic tells you??? I've still got a good feeling for you in January...

P.S Working in your PJ's..... What could be better?!!!! x x

dakini · Dec 20th, 2007, 18:09 PM

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Originally Posted by bambikate

Hello Mrs, looking forward to hearing what the psychic tells you??? I've still got a good feeling for you in January...

yeah, so do I. Either January or February...good feelings for one of those.

I am going to be updating my journal here after the psychic visit...so keep watching for updates. That will be in just over a week. I can't wait!

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P.S Working in your PJ's..... What could be better?!!!! x x

That's what I say! I can't wait for that either...that and a day off! I can't believe it! The only days off I've really had in the past few years have been a day here and there (other than the 3 days off for my wedding), and that doesn't feel like a real vacation, and time off for being sick, and that's not a vacation at all!

Granted, this won't be either, but at least it will feel ike something!

dakini · Dec 24th, 2007, 16:48 PM

Well, it's finally Christmas Eve! A part day of work, run out to get inhalers for my asthma so I don't run out on Christmas and not be able to get any...then work out, get ready for tonight...can't wait to see what everyone gets. And then, Friday! Psychic! Can't wait! And then I get to go see someone for lunch that I used to work with. Just like the thought of a few days off. granted, today I have to do some work around my house before heading out to the MILs. Laundry, dishes, vacuuming...all the fun stuff. Not that I feel like it. But oh well.

Okay, on to the TTC stuff. Nothing yet, though I have been getting a few pains, maybe ovulation? Maybe gas?

Not sure yet, but time will tell. Temp has stayed low, but sometime this week or so it should go up and show I've o'ed. Anywhere from Dec 28th to Jan 1. Been good so far at the "practicing" so hoping we can keep it up. And that something happens soon. I really want that BFP in 2008!

Just so tired today, and so gassy, and I have a slight headache again...but that could be due to caffeine withdrawal. Also woke up again with slight nausea. this has gotten so old. And it's not a sign of anything! Oh well, hope the new "sea sickness bands" help. At least it only seems to be in the mornings and goes away after I eat. Doctor is going to get an earful! Not that he can really do anything about them....damn.

So, we'll see what happens. In the new year I'll be starting another 2ww...what joy.

Merry Christmas everyone!

dakini · Dec 27th, 2007, 20:05 PM

Well, CD15. Temps have been very low lately. Thinking that maybe tomorrow will be my O day. Would match what happened my second cycle. Just hope that it ends with a BFP and not a BFN like that one!

Temps have been low, even with not sleeping well lately. Today's was really low. We'll see what happens. Also been so very tired for the past few days, but that will happen with late nights. Hopefully I can get back on schedule soon. Not going to resort to Pepsi like I did last night...was trying to stay awake and had far too many Pepsi's...back to my 1 can a day now. May have to have another one later, but trying not to. May also be because I haven't been drinking the same amount of water that I've gotten used to...

So, other than being sleepy and tired, low temps (do think it's a good indication that O is coming up, especially with the dramatic drop today after (finally!) and good night's sleep), I've just had a few cramps/pains that may be a sign of impending O, and fluctuating between looseness and constipation...I know, TMI

!...nothing much is up. Soon I can get ready for my meet and greet tonight (have to go to friend's of my parents to see their new grandbaby - live in BC so they are in for Christmas. Really don't want to go. Would rather stay home and clean up or even just relax with DH and kitties), not be too late and come home and do something. Even if it's just laundry and hang up new clothes.

Feeling a little down today, but I think that's the too many nights of not sleeping coming into play. Still feel positive about getting a BFP soon, just not sure I'm going to be able to handle it...can't wait for doctor's appointment to talk about meds. Just not working on my own. The extra vitamin Bs and Folic Acid don't seem to be helping. Granted, it's only been a little bit, but I am not myself. And it's driving me nuts!

All I was thinking about last night as we were at MILs last night was that I wanted my baby with me!

And it's not even like we'd have had a chance to have one for this Christmas, I just wanted one!

I know, doesn't make a lot of sense. Not sure I can explain it well. I guess, I was hoping that I'd be able to be pg this Christmas so that I was reasonably sure we'd be holding our child next Christmas.

Again, still feeling positive about (still so very odd), just so tired that I guess I can't imagine having a child and not sleeping, and that's what's starting to worry me. I've been so sleep deprived for the past few days and it's starting to scare me. What if I'm not able to handle it when we have a child? But, then again, I think it's that damned depression sneaking back up. And, I'm upset that DH and I haven't had a chance to talk about it, and that's stressing me out too. I don't want to go back on meds without talking to him. I'm sure he's going to say to go on one that we can be reasonably sure is safe, but as it's his child too (or will be, when we get to that stage), I don't want to take something that will affect our lives later. Especially if it means that baby is a little cranky for the first week or two from not getting them anymore. Doesn't seem fair to me. At least most of the things that I've been able to find about the drugs I've been looking at (after to of course talk with doctor first) have been positive. Just not sure that too many people would write about their negative experiences....just so much going on in my little brain, and it's so tired and it feels like it's going to explode!

Ok, long rant and ramble is over.

dakini · Dec 31st, 2007, 16:40 PM

Ok, my body is driving my nuts!

No O yet! Temps are still low!

Oh well. It will happen when it happens. Been taking extra Vitamin Bs so wondering what that's doing... We'll see anyway. Maybe I'll just O late again. Hope my temps go up. Could be the decreased amount of sleep, though that doesn't explain this morning's....oh well. Whatever.

So, for those of you that are waiting anxiously (or not so anxiously...

) here is what the psychic said last Friday...

My DH loves me, it's for marriage, for kids, for life. I hope so, but you never really know until after, do you? But it's nice to hear.
My father is having medical issues, and if he wants to live a long life, he has to start watching what he eats. He's not dying, but he needs to watch. She described him as someone that knows about the problem but says, "I don't care, I'm still going to eat this, drink this...". Basically, this is my Dad, he has diabetes and high blood pressure, but still drinks beer and eats what he wants, though he is starting to look after himself better, it's still not perfect and he does too many of the "I'm just going to have this once...it can't be that bad to have it once..." meanwhile, if you do that every day...
I moved into my new house 2 years ago Just over a year and half ago and we will be changing carpets hope to, but doesn't really look like it's happening soon, though I guess you never know...been talking about adding tiles to the front entrance....
We have a new truck about 2 years old, she says that's still new to her (and really, it is to me too) and in a few years we will be getting another one, or a van We've been talking about getting another truck (don't really want a van) or a small SUV once the trucks' been paid off in a few years....
We will move when our kids are older, to a place just outside the city that's 2 stories first thing that popped into my head was my parent's house...I'd so love to live out there... She said my DH is in balance with nature and he might hunt, but he does love the outdoors and will want to move to get more space and "fresh air". My DH has hunted with his Dad, but he's never shot anything. He loves the outdoors though and we have talked about moving outside the city in 5-10 years....
2 will figure prominently in my life - 2 kids, 2 story house, 2 cars/trucks....oh, did I forget to mention that I am "meant to have 3 kids, but she only sees 2" and the first will be a boy??

She did say that doesn't know if the third child is due to a miscarriage or DH and I just decide to stop at 2, she can't say. But.....and this is the exciting part....drum roll please...............I am supposed to be "heavily pregnant" by August!

I just hope it's true! She said that it's not a due date, as I'd have to get pg right now (didn't want to tell her that that would mean I'd actually be pg right now and not know it!

but I guess if I delivered early...) but she sees me heavily pregnant by August, and not "I just found out..." I hope so. I am figuring that means that I should be anywhere from say 5-8 months along...
Nothing else too much exciting (and I can't remember anymore right now) but the last thing was that I asked about feeling my Grandpa around me the past few weeks. She turned over 3 cards - 1 first, Good Fortune. The 2nd, I can't remember exactly, but good news. The 3rd, the Baby Crib! She said, that's why he's here - you will be pg soon!

Have some other things to put in here about the weekend, but no time. Will try and put them in later...but that's basically my reading. I will have 2 kids, a boy first, and I will be pg soon, I will be moving in the next few years, and my DH will love me forever...we'll see what all comes true in the next little while!

bambikate · Dec 31st, 2007, 17:41 PM

WOAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! Thats fantastic about your reading. She sounded very specific and accurate. Congrats I hope it all comes true for you hun, heavily pg by august eh?..... woo hoo!!!!!

P.S Happy New Year xx x

dakini · Jan 1st, 2008, 18:42 PM

Happy New Year too! And thanks. Some of the things she said were very close and accurate. Very cool. And am just waiting for that BFP that should (hoping!) be here in the next few months...

avistar · Jan 2nd, 2008, 04:18 AM

I want a physic reading! How interesting!

Capuru · Jan 2nd, 2008, 08:55 AM

Hi

your story is so interesting I just signed up today and this is my first reply post I want to wish you good luck lots of baby dust I'm hoping for my BFP this month I really hate the 2ww

lol but I'm praying and hoping. I hope that phsycic was right I think you'll be jumping up and down when you get your BFP

lol Baby Dust to all

Capuru @->-->---

dakini · Jan 2nd, 2008, 15:07 PM

Well, it looks like I O'ed today! Woohoo!

A little later than my other 2 cycles but that's ok. At least I have that temp spike! And what a nice thing to see...

Had my doctor's appointment this morning (what fun -

) and I talked with him about antidepressants. he said he's had many women on them and no problems, so we'll see what DH says when I talk with him. Of course, no one told me to not eat this morning so I have to go back and get blood work done so they have a baseline when I am pg. I told him I was temping and he was like "don't get too involved or too stressed". yeah, little that can happen! It's not like it's not on my mind most of the time...

...though when I told him it's more so that I know when AF is coming he was fine with that. He knows how long i've been on BCP.

I still have a really good feeling about this month or the next. We kinda got a little off track with BDing every 2nd day there when DH was feeling a little off, but I think we'll be ok. We got one in last night, then this morning what a nice temp spike. We'll see what happens with that psychic's prediction...still taking it with a grain of salt, but we'll see what happens (was a little spooky how accurate she was with most everything else she said...).

Feeling a little better today. Going to give it a few more weeks with the upped amounts of Vitamin Bs and folic acid (ok with my doctor) and see if that helps with my depression. Also hoping the exercise helps too. It should. I'm also thinking about picking up a book I've seen called The Mood Cure. Debating that as I've spent so much money over Christmas!

Also have to see if I can get my office and spare room cleaned out, I think that will help as well. Have to work on a personal client's stuff too, though I think that is on hold at least until the weekend, so that's good. Have to see if my friend that pulled me in still has a job, and then see where it goes from there.

Ok, that's my update. Mostly putting in stuff for my entire life...

...but whatever. It all affects this ttc process.

Hope everyone's had a fabulous Christmas and a wonderful New Year. I have good feelings about 2008 for everyone on this site!

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