Where do I begin??

Laptop STILL broken...

Thursday night i'll take you from. OH and I were out, OH was working, I was with friends (same place) and all of a sudden, i find myself on the floor in agony. So, being the one night in the world he can't actually leave work, my friend takes me up to A&E where I am swiftly given a pregnancy test (negative -dammit!!), blood pressure yadeeda, blood sugar (OWWW) and a canula put in to get some blood (OWWW again) and give me some drugs.

So,this all happened between half 11 and 1am...when my mummy finally arrived to sit with me. By 2:30, a gynacologist came and WOULD NOT listen to me! She asked me the same questions....three times! And still wouldnt listen

so i got a smear and an internal and sent home.

Now....do any of you know if smears can *make* you bleed as the day after I had it, twice when i went to the loo i had some spotting and now nothing,but my period should be here....hmmmm....interesting. Not getting hopes up too much as pg test was negative etc and would have showed up on blood tests wouldnt it?

hmph

Well, I got my *URGENT* appointment for the Gyn....16 weeks is urgent apparently...

so my Dr has rewritten saying he wants me seen within the next few weeks :S dunno if thats good or not but i suppose it'll get something done

Eek what were they asking you over an over again?

Smears - I believe they can cause spotting hun although I think most information given on Google is it won't! Very uncomfortable all teh same I hate them!

You had a blood test for your hCG? If you were pregnant then yes it would show even if it was a low count - Do you know what it was?

Sadly 16 weeks can be classed as an emergency as often these appointments can be a wwait of 6 months - It's outragous, hang on in there hun

Hello!!!

You must all excuse my absence but any of you looking at my chart will notice that I've been busy!!!

hehe

muchos babymaking in session at my residency. what fun!

promise to post more though!!!

xxx

Thought i'd make a little final post in my diary on here...

this certainly isn't how 5 months ago i imagine my TTC Journal to come to a close

just wanted to let you all know (some of you know already) that my partner and I have seperated with no sign of reconcilliation. He's been seeing another woman for just under 2 months, and has slept with her twice. Having been prepared to forgive him and move on, he doesn't know if he wants to be with me as i was a bit maniacal in dealing with this apparently (i never once lifted a hand/object to him - despite wanting to, so i think he got off ok).

We agreed to take a week apart to think about what we both want but i feel as though im being punished when im the innocent one, so i cant see how we can ever resolve this...any advice/stories would be greatly appreciated.

So since i dont technically belong here any more, I shall say my goodbyes, although if you all don't mind, i'll check in on you from time to time to see how you're all getting on.

I want to thank you all for the continuous love and support over the past months, and wish you all the very best of luck in trying to conceive, pregnancy, and raising the beautiful children i know you will all have one day.

Love and best wishes for 2007 and the years to come,

I'll miss this very much and it breaks my heart to see it conclude this way

Steph xxxx