Writing this diary is a real eye opener as to how long it,s been since i,ve been trying to achieve my goal of becoming a mother.
It all actually started 8 years ago I was 22 and had always had problems regarding my periods ie not at all or 2 a year I would be doubled up in pain and always needing time off work.I was reffered to the hospital where i had several blood tests taken and an internal scan I was then informed i had PCOS.
I was booked in for a laparoscopy i had 48 cysts lasered off my ovaries i also had ovarian drilling and my tubes cleaned,Then i was sent home and told to go and get myself pregnant.I thought this was going to be a miracle cure unfortunately this was not to be.I got blood test done every 21 days but the results always came back the same "no ovulation has occured"
I then went onto clomid and the side effects were really bad {mood swings,hot flushes,constantly feeling sick} but after 7 months I got the result i was waiting for "ovulation has occured"
After that i tried every position you could think of, followed diet after diet to try and lose weight, done temerature charts,ovulation charts you name it i've done it but still no sucess.I ended up really depressed and realised my whole life had become nothing but one big mission to concieve.I made a massive desision to give myself a break or in other words i gave up.
That was 3 years ago. Since then i,ve got a whole new career that i love, I,ve passed my driving test,I've bought several houses till I finally found the right one and lastly on the 18th august 2007 I got married.
Now i'm stronger older and wiser and ready to jump right back in feet first and try to crack this mission to get myself a little cherub of my own.
My first IVF appointment is on the 19th october and this time i'm ready to fight,I won't be fobbed off by 2nd degree doctors that i don't understand,I won't be told to lose more weight as now my BMI is 27.5 I'm a lot more clued up and I deserve the right to be a mother.
So thats my story a lot I know but god that really felt like therapy.
GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF US WHO ARE TTC AND THINK POSITIVE.
NIC X
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