its definate girls...it didnt work for us this time .... i am so much pain, its horrible.... not even due her til next sunday, got a week of tummy ache to put up with before sheis even here..my bodyis so mean to me.... this is the norm for me though, lots of painkillers, and a healthy diet...gonna try to shift the 8lbs i gained since losing Jarrod, give my mind something else to focus on...lots of tears for me yesterday and today, cant seem to contain myself.... i cant say its not fair..cos i hae 6 healthy , beautiful children and a grandchild on the way.... but my hearts broken, and i dont feel like it will ever mend....
dont think we will be trying again... but i will stick around and see how you girls get on with your ttc ing..
lotsa love for now....

i wont be in every day i dont expect, dont forget bout me..hahaha..
lou
xxxxxx

laura i am so sorry you are feeling so disheartened. We're all here for you if you need us okay?

i think i have sodding hand foot and mouth disease! came up with little blisters on my hands yesterday and now i have a couple in my mouth... urgh... i hope it doesnt get much worse.

hows everyone doing today?

Hi girls!

Well, vacation is over, so it's back to work for me today.

I'm almost in the TWW....not sure when I'm going to O as I'm not really temping or doing OPKs, but I'm still checking CP, so according to that it should be very soon!

Sorry you are feeling down Laura... I agree with Bexx in having a memorial. I work really closely with death and greiving....it's a good way of closure. And like her, I don't know what it's like, as it has never happened to me. Good luck girl.

Alright, off to get ready for work. Check up on you all later!

Aww Loobi know that we're all here for you chick, whenever you need us. Take care sweetie

JLove....my fellow freefaller.....do me a favour babe and next time I say I'm going to freefall tell me NOT to be so silly! I haven't got a clue where I am my nipples have been so sore for the last 3days now, had bad heartburn yesterday and it woke me last night as well.....i was thinking maybe I'd O earlier this month and then today around lunchtime I had some very light yellow ewcm and the tiniest speck of blood.....what the heck is going on??!?....hopefully there won't be a next cycle but if there is I'm proud to say that my thermometer keeps me sane.....well kinda
Im_mi....how you feeling babe....hope it's not hand, foot and mouth How's Jack now?
Jenny~How's your Monday been? Getting close to test day now.....any signs????
Bumbleb....how you getting on with those opks hun...have you had a negative one now? Not long til lil Rylee will be coming home is it? Are you all ready for her?

Well lovelys, it's time to go and drown my pickle in the tub and hubby wants his mobi back Can't wait til friday.....when I can get onto pcworld's case!
Heaps of love to all and truck loads of and to go with it

welshrose i got a negative opk in the end, i was being rather impatient so i'm now officially in my 1st proper two week wait ff put me at 4po but i think i'm only 3dpo but i'll go with the 4dpo so i can poas sooner

i have my first appointment with the fs tomorrow morning so i will let you all know how it goes at lunchtime, feeling a tinsy bit nervous!

welshrose do you think it may have been implantation you noticed the other day? when are you due to test? sooo exciting

i miss loobi already i hope she is ok xxxxx

WelshRose....sounds like possible implantation! I'll keep my FX'd for ya....I am thinking I will O either today or tomorrow.....good luck!

I am so pissed off. This one guy I work with had asked me if we were trying to have kids like maybe a month ago, and jokingly I said maybe maybe not, but I have NEVER mentioned this to anyone else.....so today I went to go ask my boss something and she was in another room talking to one of my female co-workers.....who I DEFINITELY have not said anything to.....she obviously didn't know I was standing in the doorway because she was talking to my boss and said "Oh and she (referring to me) is trying to get pregnant, so that means she's not going to be here much longer" I was so pissed.......and you could tell that my boss and the other guy in the room were trying to get her to stop talking. Wow, I just can't believe some people..... I mean really......it's none of her business in the first place, and even if I am that shouldn't be a factor in what projects I'm given at work and how I progress in my career. It was almost like....why are you going to train her for something she won't be here to do in like a year......

Sorry, had to rant and my keyboard is my punching bag right now......
I guess I just have a case of the Monday's!

aww hun....I can smell the smoke coming from them keys all the way over the pond
Did you say anything to her? Some people are so rude babe and insensitive....just ignore it
Yay for O thou sweets, really hope we all catch the eggies this month. How have you found a cycle without opks?
I so hope that you and bumbleb are right in that it could be implantation. It was only a little bit of ewcm....would probably of never of seen either the ewcm or speck of blood if i hadn't checked my cp. Checked again this evening and i have no cm, it was, sorry tmi, dry earlier except right at my cervix.....can't wait to test now, i'm sure i'm not more than 5dpo thou so will probably test next sunday/monday....god that's not that far away!
Good luck Hayley hun, will be thinking of you and will check in to see how you got on.
Right then peeps, just incase it's o I must drag that dear hubby of mine up the stairs

Catch you all tomorrow, sweetdreams

aww hun....I can smell the smoke coming from them keys all the way over the pond
Did you say anything to her? Some people are so rude babe and insensitive....just ignore it
Yay for O thou sweets, really hope we all catch the eggies this month. How have you found a cycle without opks?
I so hope that you and bumbleb are right in that it could be implantation. It was only a little bit of ewcm....would probably of never of seen either the ewcm or speck of blood if i hadn't checked my cp. Checked again this evening and i have no cm, it was, sorry tmi, dry earlier except right at my cervix.....can't wait to test now, i'm sure i'm not more than 5dpo thou so will probably test next sunday/monday....god that's not that far away!
Good luck Hayley hun, will be thinking of you and will check in to see how you got on.
Right then peeps, just incase it's o I must drag that dear hubby of mine up the stairs

Catch you all tomorrow, sweetdreams

goodness me lisa i had no idea you were so far into your 2ww!! eee i am so excited for you, it certainly sounds like implantation!

Erin, thats bloody awful!! its disgusting how women are treated at work when the issue of pregnancy comes up. one of my close friends was basically forced out of her job when she was pregnant, they kept finding reasons to give her warnings and stuff and she even actually overheard her boss talking to one of the supervisors saying she had to get rid of her soon because she didnt want to have to pay her maternity pay!! bloody awful. I think you should confront that lady, it is unacceptable to go spouting off like that. its none of her business!!!

well i definitely have hand foot and mouth disease. starting to get blisters on my feet now and my mouth is so sore im so tired, too. work have told me im not to go in and im so frustrated about it. i mean, obviously i cant go in and infect everyone but i am skint, i am so overdrawn and i just cant afford to have any time off! I might see if i can get them to let me take this week off as holiday so i still get paid. my shift manager is an absolute star so i know he will do it if he can.

Oh, and because of this stupid illness DH and i probably wont get to have our date night next weekend unless i make a miraculously speedy recovery, that is. My dad said he would baby sit but only if i am well again. understandably he doesnt want to risk catching it!

oh no im_mi, i hope you get better soon, sounds nasty

my kitchen finally gets plastered tomorrow so we emptied it all out last night & now my living room has a fridge in it! my new kitchen is lovely though, i will take some pics when it starts to resemble a kitchen again

feel really nervous today, my appointment is at 9:50am, for some reason i thought it was 10:20am so it's half hour closer arghhhhhh!!!! i hope he doesn't want to inspect down below, i think thats what i'm afraid of, so stupid as he's seen it all before but OH MY GOD!

jlove i would be the same, thats so bad that they are talking behind your back but even worst that it's a very private subject, i would say something to them, hope you are feeling ok hun

hope you all have a fab day, will check in with you all later xxx


loobi hope you are ok, sending you lots of