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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 08:59 AM   #1
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Mini rant - green eyed monster!


Oh ladies, i am beginning to think i need to stop going on Facebook - two friends have had babies this week already and i congratulate them and flick through their lovely photos and feel sooooo damn jealous. I should have a bubba by now, i feel so robbed I am really happy for them, but it makes me feel sorry for myself and i HATE that

Sorry to moan, just having one of those days. If i tell DH he's great and he rubs my hand and says 'one day, babe, our time will come' and i know he's right, but still - it hurts. I don't want to make him feel bad, i know if i say too much i think it puts extra pressure on him and i hate that.

Ah c'mon BFP - give us a break!!!


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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 09:03 AM   #2
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I know how you feel hun, I have even considered removing some friendsfor that reason.But I need to be rational its not their fault I think but they make me feel so bad and sad. arhhhhhhh


 
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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 09:07 AM   #3
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I have quickly worked out that the best thing to do is post a 'congratulations' on their wall or email them cos i accidentally commented on photos/status updates and you get told EVERY time someone else congratulates them and just feels like knife twisting.

I totally agree, it's obviously not their faults and most of them who know about our situation are really thoughtful but i think jealousy is just the most hateful emotion but i just can't help it.

Must keep thinking happy thoughts!!!


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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 09:12 AM   #4
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Its hard isnt it - I am genuinely happy that my best friend is expecting her little girl soon, but there is still a pang of jealousy.

I try not to look at the pictures etc. too much, especially of those that I should have been at the same pregnancy stage at


 
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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 09:21 AM   #5
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I know exactly how you feel. My son would have been 4 months old and I hate being around my friends who have young kids cos I feel so jealous knowing what stage we should be with him .
If they experience even one tiny millisecond of whats its like for us, they would understand.


 
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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 09:26 AM   #6
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I know the feeling my friend popped over today and she is 6 weeks and was talking about how all her clothes are starting to get tight and how ill she feels i am happy 4 her but i feel like screaming inside this feeling is driving me mad! I feel like turning my phone off somedays and locking myself away so i dont have to hear about babys lol! X


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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 09:27 AM   #7
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i know what you mean......scan pics and baby pics on there but i try and think as above that its not their fault that they are pregnant and I am not. And also since having my miscarriage I have found out that quite a lot of my facebok friends had trouble conceiving or suffered a loss so I also try and think that although I may not know....they may have suffered too in their quest for a baby. Its hard but I think the more positive I can be the better. It will happen for me too and I hope I'm the one getting congratulations messages very soon!

It'll get easier darlin x x x x x x x


 
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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 09:38 AM   #8
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Thanks, yes, i know it will get easier. Patience is not one of my virtues

I would have been due on 23rd Sept and my friend was due on 23rd Oct - she gave birth earlier, but i had watched her growing throughout the pregnancy thinking of where i would have been. I never really felt jealous though as she went through an MC about 6 months before i conceived and despite her being pregnant she was still such a huge source of comfort to me when i did miscarry. It's odd really as we are not the closest of friends but she was fabulous with me. It may sound odd, but i was just willing her to have a healthy pregnancy and a beautiful, bouncing baby as i needed to see it was possible after an MC and i also knew that a 2nd MC would just crush her. We have visited them a few times and i only actually filled up when i saw my OH holding her (i was fine holding her). I just know how much he wants to be a daddy

You're right, our time will come and we will post lots of pics on FB and get tons of congratulations too! I just hope it happens soon cos i am not too patient


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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 09:44 AM   #9
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Thanks, yes, i know it will get easier. Patience is not one of my virtues

I would have been due on 23rd Sept and my friend was due on 23rd Oct - she gave birth earlier, but i had watched her growing throughout the pregnancy thinking of where i would have been. I never really felt jealous though as she went through an MC about 6 months before i conceived and despite her being pregnant she was still such a huge source of comfort to me when i did miscarry. It's odd really as we are not the closest of friends but she was fabulous with me. It may sound odd, but i was just willing her to have a healthy pregnancy and a beautiful, bouncing baby as i needed to see it was possible after an MC and i also knew that a 2nd MC would just crush her. We have visited them a few times and i only actually filled up when i saw my OH holding her (i was fine holding her). I just know how much he wants to be a daddy

You're right, our time will come and we will post lots of pics on FB and get tons of congratulations too! I just hope it happens soon cos i am not too patient

Thats the same as me! I'm soooo impatient! I want everything yesterday!

I don't tend to feel negative feelings against friends who are pregnant or who have babies but I do feel bad things when I see lots of random pregnant women out and about! Madness!

The most heartbreaking thing is seeing hubby upset! Mine can't wait to be a daddy either and I felt like I'd let him down (although I know I haven't) but I just kept saying I'm so sorry! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


 
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Old Jan 26th, 2010, 10:22 AM   #10
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OMG Beadette! I'm exactly the same!! I thought that in time i would blame myself for the MC in some way, but i really don't. I 100% accept that it is nature and you can't fight it, buuuuuut somehow, really oddly i do feel like my body is a failure and that it has let my hubby down. So stupid, eh? We have to keep positive and banish these stupid thoughts from our heads. I do believe in fate and that it will happen when my body is ready. I just want my body to be ready NOW!!

Looks like you have had an mmc really recently, i'm so sorry, hun. How are you doing? Are you feeling well?


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