jacky24

I can't rember the last time i cried so much in my life, ended up crying for almost 3hours last night....

Me and OH had the worst fight ever about TTC, as he said it is all i focus on and he feels like a sperm donor

Where i eventually broke down and told OH if he had any ways and means to be able to take away my longing for another baby i will do it, i told him that how can i not think about something that i long for so much, something i wish for each and every day, i went to hospital to have my baby and 4days later left with nothing... There is nothing wrong with my OH, it is my body that is not functioning and it kills me to not be able to give OH the one thing his heart wants most in the world right now....

So OH broke down.. He wants to have another baby as well so badly that he said it himself... 'ALL I CAN THINK OF IS HAVING A BABY WITH YOU MY BEAUTIFUL WIFE- I EAT SLEEP AND LIVE TO MAKE YOU A MOTHER AGAIN' I didn't know this is how he felt, so deep down girls i think our OH wants to have a baby as much as we do.....

So here is to eventually and hopefully making a new Baby to love...

miel

you go ahead and give a big hug to your husband for me
Jacky will you see darling you will hold in your arms a beautiful little one very soon

NeyNey

Oh Jacky sweetheart.

Yes, sometimes the OH's and DH's seem to become shadows in our obsession. When I actually got my BFP and saw DH's reaction, to watch him cry with happiness just made me melt. He then told me during our time as expected parents that he always got so sad when my AF would arrive but never said anything because he felt it was his place to console me not cry with me. I mean how sweet is that? Our m/c really affected him deeply, and I know he longs for another chance as much as I do.

Men just seem to be able to control emotions a lot better....perhaps its the fact they haven't got a million different hormones pulling them in a million different directions!

jacky24

Thanks miel, neyney...

It just broke my heart to have OH sit there sobbing so bad telling me he also hates it when AF starts and he actually keeps calender of my dates and he is good at knowing when i am close to O now.

But the words "I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE WANTED TO BE A DADDY SO BADLY MY ANGEL, AND IT BREAKS ME INTO PIECES AS WE HAVE BEEN STRUGLLING NOW FOR 13MONTHS AND IT HAS BEEN 13MONTHS OF HELL FOR ME TOO"

O the Dear Lord has blessed me with a man in a million

miel

that is exactly the kind of love you will make you both go on and be stronger in your ttc journey darling...sometimes the hardest day are some of the best one to found out there is a light somewhere for you

cerilou

Wow. You have an amazing OH.

OK time for some PMA here (I seem to have bucket loads today - no idea why). You both want the same thing and are supportive of one another. You have been completely honest about how you feel. You've cleared the air and now it's time to go and make a baby.

Sending you lots of

genkigemini

to you, Dear!

to your wonderful DH!

I am so sorry that things are going rough for you honey but I agree with the others. We will all have our babies soon.

Jack and I had a conversation similar that that about 3 months ago and it really helped to understand how much we both cared and stuff. Hope you are feeling better soon!

Nicnac

Sending lots of for you and DH.

celine

Tried to write a reply a few mins ago but pc messed up grrrr
Said that just reading the words your dh spoke made me well up with tears myself, I pray the Lord will bless you both really soon
x

6lilpigs

Same here (not the broken pc bit), what sad moving words. I hope you both get your wish soon.