Suzanne

I was feeling ok up until about an hour ago hun! Men!!!! I wish I could live without the man in my life, what the hell am I saying.... I know I can live without him but we have this habit of ending up back together all the time! Although we dont have a "normal" relationship! Its very confusing, we were together for 3 years, but split up because ironically I didnt want anymore children and he wanted a baby, he started seeing someone else and we split up, 3 months later she was pregnant, they had a boy together, he split up with her in February and she has made our lives hell, me and him started seeing eachother again at the end of April, just on and off nothing serious but he is the one man ive loved more than anyone (apart from my babies of course) I cant seem to walk away from him, he tells me he doesnt want anyone else but that he doesnt want a "normal" relationship with me, I have to admit he just cant do relationships, he is pants at it LOL! He only has to make one comment slightly out of line and I take it to heart and think the worst, or maybe im barking up the right tree and he is making out that im mad! I just want to walk away from him but dont know how to! Dont get me wrong I love him endlessly, would do anything to work things out but its not going to happen so I know I need to walk! Yet he asks me on Friday if I would go away with him for the weekend to Paris??? I dont know what to think I really dont! Anyway ive rambled on long enough, just been sat here crying thinking how much it hurts to feel this way!

csmummu

Go to paris!!!! i bloody would keep him guessing!!! LOL call me a tease but i'd go get away from "her" for a bit see how he is then... i know its only the weekend but hey he might start talking

Suzanne

Oh trust me hun he wont start talking! We have kept things betwen us away from all our friends, kept it to ourselves, that was until Saturday night at a wedding reception, which might i add is the first time in 5 years we have been at the same event together!!! I walked in through the door and the first thing he did was come over and give me a kiss in front of everyone, then was all over me all night telling anyone who would listen that he wishes I was the mother of his son etc etc, so of course all ur friends are looking at us saying "how long you been back together" and all he could say was "we are not back together" then they would say "ok so when are you getting back together" and he would reply "were not we are just friends" arghhhh its killing me

Anyway thanks hun!

csmummu

OMG what an idiot. . . . you totally diserve better... xxx

Suzanne

Ya know what hun, I tell myself the same thing everyday! But how the hell do I walk away from the only man I have ever really loved! Damn this love thing is hard, whoever invented it needs shooting LOL! x

csmummu

^^ musta have been a man! dont make anything easy!

Suzanne

LMAO too funnY!

wishing4ababy

Bloody typical of men to think they can have it all. it makes me so mad. I agree hun that you deserve better. Love is supposed to be a 2 way thing hun - and if this love isn't making you happy then what is the point? I'm sorry if this sounds out of line but i think you sound like a lovely person - and if he isn't treating you with the respect you deserve then I think you would be better off without him. *hope i am not offending you here hun but it really gets to me that there are men out there who treat women like this*
I hope you work things out hun I really do. and we are all here for you - whenever you need us.
Feel free to pm me chick - i was in a very similar relationship before i met oh.

Sinead

Hope you work everything out xxx

Suzanne

You havent offended me at all hun, I need peope like yourself to knock some sense into me I hear exactly what your saying and im sure one day soon I will get off my bckside and sort it all out!