jacky24

I have just hit a depro today.

O.k so im on CD28 so should show up like today still, i so know im not pregnant this month, but im also kinda relieved.

I know im being horrible, but why did GOD take my full term baby away from me the first time.
I strongly believe there was something wrong with my child.

BUT- will i make a good mother, will i be able to take care of a baby.

As i miss my baby boy so much, will i love a next baby as much as i loved CJ.

I won't be able to bear having a m/c or anything remotely to what has happened to me, i would simply not be able to bear any further heartace.

celine

*hug*
Im so sorry I dont know why God would take away ur baby boy, but Im sure there is a very good reason we will never know
My mom lost a daughter 2 years after I was born, she heard her cry then she died (baby) she had a name and everything. Mom still thinks about her at times, even I do though I never knew her.
Your son will always stay with you and be watching you from heaven, I think you are a very strong person to have gone thru this experience.

*hug*

Stephie 25

sorry, nothing usefull to say,

Lyns

Hunny, I can't believe you have been as strong as you seem, after what you've been through and some turmoil in your emotions is only natural.

I will say that one thing God did give us is the capacity for infinite amounts of love for any children we have......you don't have a set amount and have to divide it out, you will definitely love another child of yours just as much....and probably learn to let that love grow even more.

Whether you are ready or not....well, the only person that will know that is you. Maybe you are ready, but scared, in which case I think you have every right to be. My daughter was born with cancer.....a huge tumour in her tummy.....and I'm so scared another baby will have the same, but I know its something I so want to do. Yes, every month, in amongst my disappointment, there is a small part of me that is slightly relieved....but its purely relief that i don't actually have to face my fears at that point.....I know I'm ready for another child.

I know this isn't everyone's answer, but have you been through, or were you even offered any grief counselling?