Farie

I'm having a bad day today, 2 s and now my discharge is looking pinky
My best mate from home has just emailed with her scan to say shes 12 weeks, I am so very happy for her, and yet so very upset. They weren't even trying. In her words 'it just kinda happened'

Usually I'm an up-beat person I'm the one telling friends 'it will happen' but today, the day before OH's B'day, I simply cannot make myself believe it
It just feels like I cannot believe it will happen, I'm actually scaring myself with how I feel, Generally I get a have a quick mope and pick myself up, but I don't feel like that today, I feel like I've been emotionally kicked about. Why this cycle? Why do I feel worse than last?

OH is so lovely, he just gives me the biggest hugs and tell me it will happen, and that he loves me. But today, I feel like such a failure.

Please, someone, give me a kick up the bum (and tell me to turn James Blunt off ... as I don't think he's helping!!)
How do you girls stay positive?

Loula

speaking for myself I go through phases of being "Ok" with it and it not affecting me, then every so often for some reason ( usually coinciding with an event like xmas, bday, anniv etc or like this month after hearing it said so many times, oh you'll fall after having tubes flushed) it will really hit me a low blow and I'll find it hard to bounce back, hard to deal with seeing pg women, and extreme envy of bfps.

I think this is going to be one of those months for me too.

Beltane

Im in the same boat luv. I feel so sad today after getting 3 bfn's. To make Myself feel better, Im going to do all the things I wouldnt be able to do if I was with child . Dye My hair, have some cocktails and such! Do something sweet for yourself!

magicvw

Hiya Fairie! Hun of course it will happen - and you so are so not a failure for goodness sake!!! You are a wonderful ,lurrrvelly lady and, like all us do, you are having a crap day on the TTC journey - but it won't last. Turn off the James Blunt woman- you know it's not helping - put something on that you can bounce around to inspite of yourself, and you'll be feeling better in no time

meg

i wont pretend to understand how you're feeling dear, but I know that it must be hard when despite doing everything right you're not getting the results you want.

i guess you have to look forward and not dwell in the moment - especially if its a bad one! how many dpo are you luv? edit - just saw your ticker!

Lu28

I'm sorry you're feeling low today hon. I think its a case of peaks and troughs, some months are just harder than others, especially when you hear other people's good news, as happy as you are for them. Take comfort in OH and treat yourself for the next few days. And come to us for a moan, we're always here for you. Massive xxx

Sinead

We all jst cope coz we have to, which is why every BFP on here is a huge celebration for us all xxxxx

elm

Aw Farie, really sorry you're having such a bad time at the moment x

Don't be hard on yourself for feeling, have a good cry if you want to then get that James Blunt off and put something lots happier on and do somethings lovely like having a huge bath and pamper yourself or something.

You're not a failure at all you're just having a bad day, you're fantastic! Get your batteries recharged a bit so you can give OH a lovely birthday and you can both have wonderful time and be happy as you deserve to be.

x

TrixieLox

I know how you feel hon. Most of us cope cos we have a survival mechanism that kicks in. This TTCing business could turn you insane.

With each new cycle, I tend to see it as a new beginning. I always seem to cope somehow. x