i figure out that my hardness time it's not when AF flow is here , it's just the first couples of day when you know she is coming because we know so well our body, we know the signs (spotting ; cramps and of course the first BFN around 9 or 10 DPO ) and i know it's over those days are my hard time i think . When AF is here it's like a relieve actually almost like a new hope is coming the cycle is over but a new one is coming with a new hope for the month.

Can you tell i am on CD2 ...
New month ladies ! let's have our babies !!!!

when is your hard time?

Definitely the day AF comes, I can convince myself there's still hope up until that point! But when AF is there, that's the end of it and there's nothing you can do about the situation for at least a week

I agree with you Miel, new cycle brings new hope. And in the last few days of a cycle, when you feel sure it hasn't been your lucky month you just want af to hurry up so you can get going on the next cycle. Bit sad really because I seem to spend 2 weeks out of every 4 wishing my life away at the moment - going to try not to do this next month!!!

Lxx

Good luck girls! Hope we get lots of May

my hardest time is about the 8 days before AF is due - i know i've definitely ovulated, there is no hope of BD anymore to help and i have to wait!

I go on the 2ww site and review the pregnancy symptoms.
Then i POAS around 10DPO and when it's a i read the leaflet which says only 53% of pregnant women would get a postive at this time. So i figure i COULD be in the remaining 47% and cross my fingers.......
then the spotting comes and i rationalise that it could be implantation... ignore the cramps... i'm sure i'm queasy and yes, there is a funny taste in my mouth.
By 12DPO i'm POAS and this time i'm trying to rationalise that if 85% of women get a positive at this time, i'm only in the 15%.

Then i just know - and i feel happy that i'm not going mad anymore!!!

When AF arrives, thats tough. I was fine when i was on the BCP, now i'm not and i'm TTC i get emotional and pains i never knew existed......and its so tough going through something so naff and feeling lousy when all you want is a , also when i get my hopes up and get a on testing, thats tough too.

I'm with Lu28. When AF is in town I get frustrated because you KNOW you aren't pregnant but there is nothing you can do about it. O time is fine because you can BD BD BD and feel like it might be your month. The 2ww is alright because you know that you have done all you can; you can be hopeful!

Damn that AF! Hope she stays away from all!

2 ww, or 12dpo and bfn to be precise, and then 13dpo(today) when you think you are another day past ovulation, and witch comes to greet you. Cycle over. A new one begins

xxxx

Apart from the first week of the 2WW.

The hardest time for me if soon as AF finishes. To be honest, I'm like you hun, I sometimes see AF as a relief. Because by then I've gotten BFN and I just want to get AF over with and start again. But after AF is gone, that wait for O, wondering if you BD enough, or Too much! Then you worry about DH and if he can keep up.....Urgh! I hate O time....It's all a bit daunting

It's weird, isn't it? How we see AF as a time of reflection and renewal. And yet dread her arrival?

For me, the worst time is the first sign of spotting. The hesitation to begin with - the 'is it, isn't it?' then the sinking feeling when you realise it is AF, like you wanna slide down the bathroom wall and start cying in a dramatic fashion! I haven't cried yet and I wish I would.

The few days before AF is due, when you know deep down in your gut that this isn't your month.

This time that I'm going through now, a few days before Oing, in limbo. x