Well I had my ultrasound last tuesday, and I went to see my OBGYN this morning for the follow-up. I was told I have polycystic ovaries(same as PCOS?)... The doctor said she wanted to put me on birth control and see if they will shrink. She gave me the first months worth and gave me a prescription for 5 more months. She said try for 3 months and come back and we'll see if they shrink.
I was fine with that. I figured I'll lose as much weight as possible, and the weight loss will help with it, and I'll try again in about 6 months. I'm only 21 so I have quite a few years left to have a baby.
So my OH and I go shopping, we went to Home Depot and got supplies to make a bunny playpen, and to target,... We got home and the Doctor who saw me today called and said to call her back as soon as I can. I called her back and she said she spoke with the main doctor and she thinks it's best to have them drained. I have to have it done on thursday and it's a month of recovery.
I really didn't want to have another surgery. I tried to at least postpone it, but I was told that if it's not done soon, my ovaries would twist and possibly kill the ovary.
Now all of these "what ifs" and "whys" are running through my head... like what if I'm never able to have children? I know I can adopt, and I plan to, but I always thought have at least one of my own, and adopt more. And why are people who abuse their kids able to have them? Why can people who dont want kids able to have them? and why can some people have a lot of kids, and some can't have any?
I know I shouldn't just assume the worst, but I am worried, and scared. I want a baby so bad!
I guess I'll be in the waiting to try forum now...