Yeahh it is.
Id pick a baby over a holiday anyday, i want nothing more than my own little precious life that i can build and take care of.
But like id just feel really selfish, because my friends nan and grandad have paid for me for this holiday. its probely cost them £10,000 just for me, for all the things we are doing. and to turn around and say ' oh im pregnant, i cant come sorry' is just down right discraceful i think.
I would be still alright to go though wouldnt i ? i mean ive resaerched it all and it said flights allow women up to 28 weeks pregnant to fly, so if i WAS pregnant, id only be 2/3 months, so i should be alright, yes ?
But me and my boyfriend dont want to tell people we are actually trying for a baby, theyd all think we were a bunch of idiots, we want to say it was an accident but theres no way i could get rid of it.
We thought it through and it really does giveme butterflies just thinking about it. My boyfriends mother, and my boyfriends brother have just had a baby, one a boy one a girl, so whatevr i was to have id be having all of their toys and clothes to pass down (: which takes a huge weight off my shoulders. But i am also in a job, and my boyfriend is currently looking for a job so we will be aerning my own money.
I did plan to start college in september,doing childcare, i chose tat just because i dont know what else i want to do. So if i am pregnant, i am going to put of college for a few years, hopefully by then i will know exactly what i want to do and can go into it. My boyfriend is going to continue going to college andhave a part time job, and we will get help and suport of my and his family ( i hope .. if they are not too mad when they find out ! ).
Ive researched more or less everything, ive already decided me n my bf are going to parent and child classes, i want to do some sort of pregnancy excercieses, maybe water aerobics.
We finish school in 3/4 weeks, so by the time i start getting any syptoms or whatever, it should be more or less over, thank god.
its just this america trip doubting me, because it is a once ina lifetime opportunity.
I think if im not pregnant this time, we are not going to try again untill i come back from america at the end of july. then we would have nothing tow orry about
xx