none of my friends know im ttc i was going to tell one but shes recently broken up with her boyfirend so she has enough going on. my mum knows but i dont want to worry her as she was upset for me when i told her wed been ttc for quite a while and nothing had happened yet. i feel like i 'go on' too much about it to OH and hes out tonight and im home alone with evil af feeling ridiculously emotional which is not normal for me! I used to suffer from depression and the last couple of days ive really felt it set in again, im not sure if its just the hormones.

ttc has really taken it toll on me, i dont know what to do

Oh Sweetheart.

Thats why you have us here. I know we're in a computer website, but we are a group of women who know exactly what you're going through, and at the end of the day there's a woman sitting on the other side of this screen who's willing to "cyber hug" you anytime you need it.

thanks ney ney thats very sweet of you which made me started blubbing again! My hormones are really playing havoc with me at the moment!

Oh Carolina! I know oh so much how you feel!!! I actually just told an old friend that we were trying and I got checked out to be safe. It felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I haven't talked to her since, because these past two weeks have been really busy and emotional. It is hard to know who to tell and I know, I feel kinda embarrassed that it has taken us this long...but I really shouldn't feel that way. Maybe you could journal. I do, and it helps. I write poems and songs too. Your not alone, I promise!!!!!!! I can't even tell my mom...

It must be the hormones...Im one a hormonal trip myself... Stupid hormones.... (We are on the same day CD3 ) I can understand not really having anyone to talk to outside of BnB.... I talked to my sister and it got back to my mom and now she is nagging me to go see the Dr.....

Oh I know how it is.

I am trying to be optimistic, but I can not tell any of my friends because they all have kids and feel it is their duty to tell me how easy it is to get pregnant.

I mostly do my journal and talk on this forum, I know there are so many supportive people on here that are not catty and rude.

I do have some days I feel really alone though.

most of my friends and work colleagues know we're trying and i wish i hadn't told them now cos its a constant "how you doing on the baby front" "Your trying too hard etc etc". Me and hubby always hada plan to sort out our house which was disgusting when we first bought it, get married, then try for a baby, everyone knew this was the plan cos i wanted to try over two years ago but we bought this house and couldn't really. Now it feels like ive waited forever and most people know to the point where my friends/work colleagues almost apologise when they are pg cos they don't wanna upset me. I don't get upset at them etc but i think they feel that they have to say that. So on the flip side telling everyone your trying doesn't help, in my opinion, juts come on here and talk to us girlies instead xx

Hey Carolina

This site definitely helps - this is the first month where i haven't felt quite like i'm gonna lose the plot if AF comes. You know you aren't alone, there are always people here to cheer you up and sympathise with you as everyone else is in the same boat.

Chin up, get smiley, run round the living room and get those endorphins going (or dolphins as DH calls them) If you are on AF now it's nearly time to get BD'ing again!!

Would agree. I also had my life plan set out too. I was 14 when i was first with my hubby, but made sure i did college, then uni, then small house, then marriage, then uni again, then bigger house before we would start trying, although we've wanted it for sooooooooo long. 10 years later and with a 3 bed house and desparately ttc- it seems the whole world is asking us when we are going to have children and I'm rubbish at keeping a straight face. So I'm constantly getting the 'any news' phone calls. much to hubby's dismay as he wanted it kept secret.
I feel more alone than ever when hubby's at work and breaking the 'not this month' news again and again. Plus all my friends fell pregnant very quickly, most one night stands or unwanted pregnancies and that makes it harder. No one else, other than hubby, seems to understand like you all do. Can't believe i went so long without meeting you all. thanks to everyone for helping me through these difficult times.

hun if you think you will feel better from telling someone, then do it. I find i feel better telling my female mates whats going on, and they are all really good with it,and they listen on a daily basis.

In a way i wish i hadnt told so many people we are ttc,but i go so excited.

Hope you feel better about it all soon hun-and u no all of us ladies are here for you
xx