Originally Posted by Beckic

I am having a 'dark day' as well Carolina as the witch turned up in full force this morning. I have been TTC for two years now and whilst at the beginning I hated myself for letting the sadness own me and really worked myself up that I was getting depressed when I always think of myself as a positive person. But recently I haver reconciled myself to the fact that it is just hormones and I am ALLOWED to have a day to wallow and cry and feel really sorry for myself. because I know I will wake up tomorrow morning and feel better, and that I will update my diary for my new cycle dates and get excited about when we will BD and when my new due date would be. I would love to not get this upset - but if I hate myself for it it only makes things worse. My OH always tells me to get a grip and that I have to stay positive - but i have decided that for one day a month I will be true to my feelings and feel down in the dumps if I want to. I promise that this is a combination of hormones and extreme disappointment - but that tomororw you will feel better - the hope will come back.
You are most definitely not alone - everyone on here is there for you and fully understands what you are going through.
Lots and lots and lots of
As for me - I'm off to have a bloomin good sob in the office toilets - and I will not feel guilty about it!!
Bx x x

Originally Posted by Amanda

That is a fantastic way of looking at it! I'm having my 'down' day today (AF turned up 5 hours ago), and actually have tears rolling down my cheeks as I type this. I'm felt like I shouldn't be doing this, but after reading your post, I've decided I'm allowed to. I'm smiling now as I'm crying!! I'm going to be depressed, fed-up and weepy till Kayleigh gets out of bed. It's her birthday today, so then I'm going to be all happy and smiles. We're round a friends tonight for dinner, so oodles and oodles of guilt-free wine then a stinking hangover tomorrow.

As for the friends thing, most of my close friends know. My best friend is great most of the time. I found out that one of my friends is pg yesterday, and Donna looked at my face and dragged me out to the toilet for a big hug. But, I also get the "you're trying too hard" speech from her every week as well! I told SIL last week and she was very shocked that we'd even been trying. I haven't told my parents or the inlaws because I couldn't stand the questions every month. It's hard decided what to do isn't it.

But, we're all in the same boat here. Tell us how you feel and we'll wallow together.

Originally Posted by Carolina

My oh has bought mario kart today for the wii to cheer me up and were going to get a takeaway tonight so that will cheer me up! He was out at a gig last night so i think thats why i was soo emotional because i needed a hug! But hes making it up to me tonight which is sweet!