To follow onto my I can't take it anymore post .......

I have finally calmed down, i had my , and RANT, And SCREAM, a few SMOKES, all i need is a stiff DRINK...

But i had a talk to DH cried and smiled and cried, but i admited to DH that i feel like a failure to him, I mean come on im on CD70, and DH want's to have a , as much as i do it's actually scary....

You always hear about there is something wrong with him, but there is nothing wrong with DH, he is always willing and exited about B-ding, no matter how long his day, how bad his day, he was always willing and up for the B-ding.

But i can't give him what he wan't most in the world, a precious Gift from God, made with love, a little part of him and me placed in one small human being

I trully hope from being fine now for 50days that it's the finally telling me she is on her way..........

awww, sweetie, you are not a failure. {{HUGS}} Chin up Luv!

I would put money on being on her way right now for you.
It almost seems that when we are at our most vulnerable, feeling as low as you can get, all your hormones suddenly kick in and your body starts screaming "I want a baby! I want a baby!" and you just want to and !!
It's like kicking a defenceless puppy. Being a woman is soooooo crap at times! I bet you get AF in the next couple of days and you will be posting a "Yaaaayyy, came" post!
Don't get too down hun (says me, posting a "i can't stop crying" post this morning!! Maybe i need to take some of my own advice!!).

Jackie,although i dont know you personaly,id like to say from reading your posts i think you are one of the most kindest,bravest,inspirational women on here.You are far from a failure.I know its easy to say but im sure a baby will come to you and your husband,if anyone deserves it you 2 do.Your in my hopes,thoughts and prayers

You're not a failure at all

Oh darling, you are not a failure
You just have to wait a while until god decides it time for him to let go of am angel and bring them to you

look at all the weight you've lost - a failure couldn't do that!! You're doing great keep it up!
I'm sure will be here soon!

I just wanted to second this post. I think i told you a while ago that reading your story inspired me. You aren't a failure at all, you are most definitely a winner. Anyone who can go through what you have been through and still be here to tell the tale with (most days!) a smile on your face, is the sign of a truly inspirational and brave woman. Your DH sounds absolutely amazing too! You two deserve a child more than anyone i have ever known. Don't give up hope. You will make the most fantastic parents ever xx

Yeah, Coffee said it nicely honey, you're an inspiration Hope you feel better soon, keep your chin up.

Honey, see the first line in my signature! I totally feel your pain. I really really do! Ever want to rant with me? Just pm me, ok?