jacky24

CD70 F*&^%ing CD70!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know if i am going to make it to the end of the day or not, i just PM my friend and i told her i don't think i should come back to BNB for a while, until i have sorted my cycle and LIFE out....

You all know my story, and i have just been very sad since his 10month B-date, i come onto BNB, and all i see is BFPPPPP, or lost my baby, or sad, or depressed, or my DH, no offence to anyone as we all have problems and issues but i take all these emotions on with it, and when i go to the m/c and loss section im so sadened by all the other ladies hurting aswell, i have been taking in all the emotions and feeling the pain with them, the feeling of my heart bleeding for them all, as i know how they feel....

I trully never would wish upon anyone to ever lose a child, as to date i don't know how i actually got to today, to just realise im not O.K...

NeyNey

Oh honey
My heart does honestly break for you. I remember when my cycle went forever (last one) and it was so confusing/frustrating/heartbreaking to not know what is happening.

I wish there was something to say to make it better, I know there isn't.

I just wanted you to know that you are not alone, even if you feel like it sometimes. We're here for you, and if you need a break, we understand.

Take care precious.

loopylew

i have replied in your journal but just wanted to say again how strong you have been xx

sjkirkham

xx

wishing4ababy

_Alice_

Oh gosh hun
This journey really does take it's toll sometimes, maybe a l ittle break will do you and you OH good, take some time to relax, stop getting so upset with TTC, come back when you are a little bit more relaxed.
I'm so sorry for your loss, i can only imagine what you are going through,

all my love, Ally xx

Lazy Leo

Hey Jackie, I don't know you in 'real life' but I have so much respect for you for what you have gone through. You are obviously very strong to have come through what you have done. I think its natural to have a hissy fit at CD70! I would have gone bananas by now! So go on and enjoy that hissy fit and I hope your cycles get on course soon. How are the gym sessions going?

Schmelly

Lots of hugs from me. You must do whatever you feel is right and whatever will help you most. I'm so sorry to hear your story.

Chellebelle

Aww Jacky

I am sorry you're having such a tough time... it is bad enough having such a long cycle but even worse when you are going through what you are. If you do choose to have a break, I wish you all the best and hope that your time for good news come soon!

Lots of