I usually start to feel this way in the beginning of the 2WW, then as I approach testing time I get more hopeful, but I am only on CD9 and feel like this cycle will be a bust too, and I have not even Oed yet. Maybe it is the Clomid speaking, but I feel like if I feel good about my first medicated cycle I will be let down. Plus next cycle she wants be to break from Clomid for a cycle and start again the cycle after that. I feel like if I get excited over the Poss BFP this cycle it will be a bigger let down then all the other cycles.

I just can not help this feeling.

big for you chick. You seem very down. I feel deflated too im due to test (or AF) on the 9th or 10th and I'm feeling really unhopeful.
Mother nature will sort us out one day but the wait and anticipation is a killer!!!!!

Big

I tend to feel all positive around the beginning of the month, feel ok up to O and then get really tense and stressed and worried through the TWW.
By the time AF arrives I'm all out of hope anyway (not helped by her coming 'early' the last 2 months

Why is it we spend years obsessing about our birth control, stressing about missing pills etc and then once we stop BC we swop the worrying to TTC and TWW?

I just do not want to get my hopes up with this medicated cycle. I feel like if I can not get BFP with medication since I already O on my Own then will I never. I think mostly I worry about having to do IUI / IVF b/c we can not afford it. Plus if my sister gets her BFP before me I am going to fall apart. I hate TTCing it gets me everytime. Each cycle I am hopful and this cycle I feel horrible.

Your not alone, i feel deflated from CD1 to CD 28. I am never hopeful..ever!
I'm a pessimist though..so it's allowed
I hope the Clomid work's well for you, from what i have heard it's very good!
Even for people who have had little success with it, after they finish the course it seem's to give their egg production a kick start and many have gotten bfp's.
Good luck and lot's of

hey you, yeah think we all feel how youre felling, in fact i feel like that more often that i feel positive these days! I actually feel like im starting to be a pain in the bum as i feel like i cant tlak to anyone in private life about it etc but you just cant help feeling negative and nobody else understands unless theyve actually had to ttc. It just happened for all of my friends but for us its not that easy eh?
Just wanted to say , know how you feel xx

THANKS Ladies, I just feel like if I get overly excited about this cycle that I will be let down. I hate seeing everyone get pregnant all over the place. My Aunt annouced her pregnancy and while I am so excited for them I am sad for me. I told DH this weekend that I was sad I was not pregnant yet and he told me he is tried of hearing it. Maybe I am stressing him out too. This is just so important to me to give DD a sibling and have anothe baby to love and raise. I just feel it may not be in the cards for us.