I'm feeling really down tonight

. I keep reading about everyone's BFPs and just wonder when it'll happen for me.
Not that I begrudge anyone here getting their BFP, but I would just love to see two lines on a PG stick, or the word PREGNANT staring me in the face.
I am CD21 and have about 6 days left til testing, but right now, I just don't think I'll be getting the best Christmas present EVER, this year. I don't FEEL pregnant, not that I really know what that feels like, but I just don't feel any different. Except for feeling very down. I'm not normally a down sort of person.
Anyways, congratulations to all who got their BFPs. Maybe sometime in the near future I'll be in the pregnancy forums. God knows I can't carry on much longer - 3 and a half years of trying is really taking its toll on me today...
xx