jacky24

CD55 27DP no O, might have O somewhere after CD21 will never know.
Started Metformin, Postoval and Clomid 100mg to follow after the finally arrives.

Atleast my cramps and sore bbs are gone and not so hungry all the time, but uggg to wait another 22 days for AF to show up, can someone please tell me why im not depressed beyond believe. I think i have already cracked and just not figured it out yet... Yup that's it

Why am i so calm about all of this?????????????????
As i want a so badly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Alexandra

Because you know you're getting there. You're taking all the steps, doing your very best and these new drugs are BOUND to help. Why would you be depressed and not excited? You'll get a baby soon!

jacky24

Thanks, i have currently made so many life changes in my life, i have made peace with my SIL, and it is so hard she is 26weeks pregnant and i see her bump grow every day and im happy for her for the first time, and i so badly want my bump too.

But god will provide i know it, it is just so hard as i have been missing my baby boy so much and been in this what if stage again, it scares me as when i go and sit in the quite i sometimes image i can hear him cry and call for me, that scares the daylightes out of me, but i know i will always think of my son and never forget him, but i need to move on and be as possitive as possible for all these meds to work and pray god that he will give me the gift in the form of a BFP..

Alexandra

You'll get there sweetheart, you really will. Big hug and God bless you.

Tishimouse

When I lost my Mum, I am sure I heard her call my name but it only happened the once. Not sure if I was awake or asleep at the time, but I guess it's all part of the grieving process. A friend of mine who is a bereavement counselor told me that the complete (if their is such a thing) grief process takes on average 5 years in all, so you are still very much at the beginning of that journey.

You sound very brave and down to Earth and I imagine it's going to give all of us here immense pleasure to read about your BFP when it comes. I hope it's rather soon. My God keep you safe and grant you the peace of mind you so deserve.


and a bit of superstitious while I'm at it.

jacky24

Thanks trish, god will bless me and keep me save i know it, i have made it now to almost 10months but some days are harder than others, im doing secret test next week so i will have to see, but im at this stage just praying to be healthy and have a healthy TTC journey.

to all on theyr TTC journey..........

superp123

Just wanted to say that I hope everything starts going your way very soon. I was glad to hear that you've made peace with the SIL. It sounds like things are already coming together for you. I'll be saying a little prayer for you. and lots of
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jacky24

Thanks superp123, i have noticed im not so stressed since i have been to doc, and i am truly happy for SIL, i can't hold it against her that she spoiled my pregnancy for me, even when i hated her when i lost CJ and i told it to her face, that how could she have told me we don't deserve to be pregnant and then cry the loudest at my sons funeral.

I think god is teaching me to deal with all the heart ace and pain and it will make me stronger for me to TTC the twins or even triplets, but a healthy baby will be all i want in the end