NeyNey

^Feeling a little like that today. I have yet to get a peak
reading or a positive OPK. Feeling a little deflated.
I had so many expectations for this cycle. I know I know it's still early.
I think it's my yearly meltdown time - I am just getting so sick to damn
death of trying for this baby. Lately I haven't even wanted to BD
EVEN when I should be - DH has to encourage me with threats of
missing the O time - and even then I have this "Who gives a shit"
attitude....I'm really trying to stay optimistic - I really really am.

I'm just beginning to think after 2.5 years of trying - that perhaps this is just one of those things we'll never have happen. I know, it's a stupid way of thinking, and I know it's just going to hinder us even more and I KNOW that miracles have happened and I know if we just relax it will help - see I know everything - but I can't for the life of me put it into practice. Perhaps we need a break, but then I think I'm 30 in a few months, and this is not going to get any easier....Perhaps that is what this is, knowing I'm approaching 30. I thought I'd have a couple of kids by 30 - and here we are....still childless.


sorry for the rant guys..
Just feeling like absolute shit today.....

sandrass

Im sorry your going through such a rough time!
I know not much of what I can say will help any, but it will happen one day! Im sure of it! Dont give up hope! If your feeling this discouraged and need a break, why dont you take a 2 or 3 month break?

Perhaps relaxing is all you need to do! Ive known a few people who have taken breaks, and gotten pregnant during their breaks without even trying. You still have lots of time!

lots of to you, this month isnt out unless AF shows! Dont give up hope! And everyone here is here for you if you need us.

Good luck!

Samo

looots of . You are SO so strong Neyney, you and your OH both! Amazing the two of you are, hanging in there and pulling through! I really do admire you, and the other ladies like Arcanegirl, Chellebelle, Sarah (genki), and the many others who have been at this game for so very long! Seeing and reading all your stories and how you manage to still put in all you have got each month for so long inspires me to keep my chin up while i wait and try for my own BFP. Surely if you ladies can endure the haul of TTC, i can find the will to put my best foot forward in the upcoming cycle of TTC.

We all have our down days though but I just know we can all pull through this. Just know that you are amazing and all your efforts will lead to happiness!! I do wish all the best for you

loopylew

i agree with Samo hun, please try and stay positive, you've only just started using the Clomis as well and ive not got a high on my monitor yet and its cd17, think it might take a couple of cycles to get going/know your levels etc. try and stay strong xx

Alexandra

Listen lady you do NOT have a meltdown and you most certainly do NOT have depressing give up thoughts! Permission denied! You are clearly not excused to do stuff like this, it's forbidden. You are supposed to be one of our precious shinning examples of strength, you do not want to be responsable for a bunch of us taking the wrong example, do ya?!?

Go forth and BD what's this sillyness about being in the mood?!? Close your eyes and think of the Queen!

Roger that?

Oh and we love you and know it will happen for you and all the mushy stuff. Really!

cupcake

im sorry your feeling so down, just a little ray of hope...
me and my brother were supposedly "never gonna be born"
mom tried for 7 years before she had me, and boom 6 years later my little brother. no explanations, no ivf. here hoping next month is your month!

tansey

Sorry you have been trying for so long - can't blame you for feeling this way, I don't think I would cope like you!
I hope something good happens to you to give you a boost and give you back some of your PMA that you must have for keeping going all this time. You deserve this and I hope you get your ASAP! Sending you extra

Stephanie16

Oh I am sorry that you are feeling so low. I think if you feel it is right to give it a break then do but do keep trying as these things do happen. I read the other day about a women taking 4 years to conceive and she then had twins! I hope everything works out okay for you xx

polo_princess

Ohhhh my lovely dont get down

The road for me has been a long one too but we will get there in the end, and it'll be even more worth the wait once that BFP comes

NeyNey

Lol you're a funny bugger...Thanks for making me laugh.

Thanks girls, your words are as always very appreciated!
Feeling better now, it's 1230am, just got home from night shift...
About to head to bed so I can be back at work at 8am...
*yawns!*

to you all