I haven't been on here much due to life and all. Trying to find a job and whatnot. Still no baby. At least as far as I know. I've been kinda feeling sick but I refuse to think it's pregnancy because I'll just be let down when it's negative. It's probably stress. Still no period (last real period was Sept. 2008). Crazy. No insurance yet either to go to a doctor. Plan for now is to find a job, pay off bills, move, husband starts school, baby somewhere in there but who knows. Most people around us say wait until we're stable but of course if we did that...we'd be waiting a long time. My mom had kids and lived paycheck to paycheck. I grew up fine. Lots of love. Money doesn't mean much. I do want a place of our own before having a baby but hopefully we'll get a place by October or so. Earlier if I get a job soon. Things will work out I hope. I'm trying to be more positive. It sucks. A friend of the family came by the other day with her 3 week old daughter. She has 3 kids(2 boys and a girl) from a previous marriage, her husband has 2 kids (twin boys) from his previous marriage. It hurt seeing the baby. I love kids and I'm at a good age to have kids. I'm in a wonderful marriage to a great guy. I don't get it. Then there's my sister....she's 19 and having her second baby in April. Somehow she got the fertile genes and I got nothing. Blah rambling.

Hey hun
I really feel for you...life can suck sometimes and its hard to see the light at the end of tunnel. Im really hoping that things will improve for you. No AF since Sept 08 is a bit of a concern...i would really recommend the Doctors. Im not quite sure of how it works in your part of the world tho...we have the NHS...which can be a pain, but is free! Otherwise take good care of yourself and you never know the AF may come back naturally.


xxxx