Unfortunately we have decided to stop TTC. We've had a few relationship issues recently, I was hoping we'd sort things out, but we haven't. OH is insisting on wearing a condom now. I'm really upset

, I was hoping he'd change his mind but he wants to wait until things are better between us. I do understand what he's saying but I'm devastated. I've spent so many hours on here recently, reading people’s threads and occasionally writing my own. I don't know what I’m going to look at on the internet now.
I'm 29 years now, I know that isn't old but I always thought I’d have a little family by now. I was so excited when we decided to TTC, my OH was excited too, and we even bought baby clothes and books which I've hidden in a drawer now. I can't look at them.
I've started taking BCP again (cerazette).
I will really miss everyone on here.
I hope you all get your

soon.
*****UPDATE******
Thank you for all your messages.
Me and OH had a great chat over the weekend and sorted out loads of things. We're going to TTC within the next six months, but firstly we're going to treat ourselves to a holiday in the Maldives in May, we thought this would be our last chance to have a relaxing holiday for a while (we're hoping to have a new arrival next year)
So.......... I'm going to hang around here if thats ok.
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