suzan

It's 12:25am here. We tried to make love at 11pm.. while it was happening, my husband's stopped working (tmi) and he just stopped. The same thing happened yesterday but I thought maybe because we did it the day before. So tonight everything was going alright, until he just stopped. He slapped his head and said "I dont know what's happening to me, this isnt normal, I need to see a doc" I told him that I am sure it's pressure, and more because of the Clomid thing..

Him: "I am sorry Suzy, I feel so ashamed of myself, I feel I am disappointing you, it's so much pressure, you arent the only one pressured, I am with you"
"I love you a lot, I am so sorry, I am scared to do it again because I dont want it to go this way again"

Me: "why are u saying that, I am sure it's bec you are pressured, please stop it.. I am desperate yes, it's a unique month, new things I did, and I am scared"

Him: "I am scared with you, but I just can't do it tonight"

I am not sure what to think, I have been crying since then.. DH is so sad and he cried. I never knew this could happen. I think this month of off for us. I am not sure if I will ever be a mother. How unfair life can be. Probably having a baby isn't in our book of life.

Just wanted to share about my miserable night. I want to die

wishing4ababy

hey. I think you and DH seriously need to sit down adn talk to each other about how you are feeling. I know that when I was trying for our first i didnt even think about how DH was feeling because all i could see that it was "me" trying to get pregnant, it was me who was going through all the pain every month when AF arrived - but once i sat down and had a really long conversation with him i realised that he was going through it too. He was feelingg really guilty for not "getting me pregnant" and felt like he was letting me down in some way. Talk to him - don't let this get you down, and please do not say you want to die. It will happen - the most amazing things in life are not easily accomplished!
there is always hope.

miel

suzan sweetie,
it will happen i am sure it will happen for you . i don;t really know how clomid work but do you guys could do it every other day instead of every day?
so this (tmi ) but sometimes when my HD take a little longer to come he just have to pull out of me for couple second and than he is good again and usually he comes with in minutes.
sweetie don't be sad it will happen.

suzan

Thx all.

DH slept on the sofa and I am here devouring ice cream to pull off my sadness.
Great, it's almost 1am

The Catster

Aw u poor thing....

U may need to tell him that u want to cool TTC for a while....so he won't feel pressurized....but secretly keep on with the clomid and casually make love(around your O time)....then he will probably function better!???

Don't be down...tomorrow is another day...
Keep telling yourself...over and over....
If I think I can, I will....

You must believe in yourself!!!!! xxx

Mervs Mum

She is absolutely right.

tinkerbell123

HI Im sorry your feeling so low at the moment. I suffered a m.c last month and i was feeling really sorry for my self and didnt give my boyfriend a second thought until things came to a head last week and we had a massive argument(something we very rarely do) i told him he doesnt know how i feel "i just lost my baby" and he said "i think you mean our baby". What im trying to say is i think sometimes we get so emotional in ttc that we dont really give a second thought to our oh or how they are feeeling( i know i didnt till last week) Sit down and talk after the emotions of tonight has settled and youll BOTH feel a lil better.
Hope you feel better soon and enjoy the ice cream YUM!!! xx

Sinead

toot

Hello there hon, I was in the same place you are right now, and you are right it is not fun. I got very upset with my dh and i said of all times why now he said that he just couldn;t, we did sit down and have a long talk and we had both cried too, dh ended up on the couch also that night but like you i was up and could not sleep, I woke dh up at 2am and i told him ok lets just give this bd thing a break... so we started to cuddle and then one thing lead to another right in the living room and it was so nice dh did finish with what I really needed lol. And now since then we sit and wright on the calander together,what the plan is for the month I too am on clomid this month for the first time and i can understand how you feel taking these meds and then the hsg shot you did your part now it is dh turn, maybe there is some way you could spice it up sexy sleep wear , game,movie, I wish you all the luck hon, it is not to late this month.

miel

did my pm work?