I am not really much of a poster on here but sometimes you just really need to vent and where better than here !

I have been ttc since September 2006 and still nothing although I have finally (after waiting ages) got a fertility appointment on the 31.3.08 !! which is great news. I had all my blood work back and everything was totally fine and this month I actually bothered again to do an ovulation test and the day I randomly picked came up positive that I was ovulating so fingers crossed, although I really wont hold my breath as I have really lost interest so much so that me and OH are only doing it around once a week now, after a while it really gets to you and to top it off I have started smoking again (not much but the stress has really gotten to me with all of this) and then to top it off even more when we started ttc we had tons of tests, routine STD, HIV tests, blood tests and everything seems fine (except for this horrid cysts that have appeared on my left ovary that may need removal but apparently wont stop me falling pregnant).. and I wasnt too worried about the OH's fertility as he had made his previous partner pregnant, although the doctor recommended that he have his sperm count retaken before my fertility appointment and every day I keep saying "you have to make a docs appointment" and he just keeps putting it off, god knows why !! I even got him a home sperm test that he hasnt even used gggrrr and its only 2 weeks until the fertility appointment... I dont want to waste the gyne's time if its the OH that has the problem.. just to go to my fertility appointment and have to tell the gyne that the OH hasnt even had his sperm tested yet

Personally I think he has become just as fed up as me with it all and tbh I think we have both kinda lost the will with all of this... maybe I am just worrying for nothing, I am only 32 (OH is 35) and we have only been trying now in total for 18 months or so....

sorry people, rant over

D x

Hey you, rants on here accepted as perfectly normal, think we all need to unleash now and again. We all know how you are feeling. Ive been ttc for 9 months now so only half the time youve been at it and i get completely fed up too. Think the answer is though that as everyone keeps telling me, the more uptight and fed up we get I can only imagine doesnt help the ttc bit either. Hey you got your + o today so why not go hoe and do something different for a change and who knows it might just do the trick and get you a bfp??!
At least youve got your appointment sorted at last and are on the road to sorting everythig out, maybe tell your partner how you are feeling. Im sure they need it spelled out for them sometimes, as dont think they realise how much it affects us women eh??
Hope you feel better honey, good luck this month , hope you get a bfp.xx

You both just sound tired and worn down by the whole thing. OH might be putting off doing sperm test because he is afraid the problem may lie with him (although that doesn't mean it's his fault). I don't have much advice really, but I wish you all the very best and I'm glad you have your fertility appointment soon.

Good luck!

Hi guys

Thanks for your positive responses just got off the phone with the OH and he said he is making an appointment to see the doc tomorrow so I guess by drilling it into him over and over it has finally paid off !!

Its all very disheartening but I am a trooper and I will keep on with it, who knows I am a day late this month but I wont tempt fate, will wait another week and then do a pregnancy test (I have even stopped buying tests now !!)..

Best of luck to you also

dx

Im glad youve had a chat and that sounds good that hes made the appointment too, at least you feel like youre in it together now too and on the same wave length. Sounds promising that youre a day late too , fingers crossed for you. You never know, a few of my firnds said they got preg the month theyd given up trying and didnt have any symptoms etc (Thats what i keep hanging on to!) so it could be you this cycle. Let us know x

will most definitely do so... thanks so much for such positive feedback

I try not to think too much into my late periods as I have a long cycle between around 34 - 40 days so I am never quite sure when my period is due so I never get my hopes up... I should have come on or around Monday/Tuesday so will leave it until next week and then test if need be... I am having a bit of pain but its disimilar to that of period pain so it may just be period warning signs although my body doesnt generally feel like this before I come on... I tend not to get my hopes up so that I won't be disappointed when I see the negative test again lol... In addition I gave up charting etc etc at the end of last year as I found I was worrying way too much about having sex on just those dates and it became way too mechanical.. right now it may only be 4-5 times a month but at leasts its really enjoyable and no way mechanical..

Thanks again ppl its so nice to know that there are other people going through the same thing as me !

dx