I feel like such a cow. i am an emotional wreck right now. ARRRG i just want to scream, i am angry, sad, frustrated, and just overall hate myself all at once.

Had a surge of EWCM, thought this was GREAT...so we BD...or tried to anyway. After a long workout to the point i was getting a bit sore and hurt, DH could NOOOOTTT "seal the deal". I was CRUSHED. I tried to carry on longer ya know, really don't know what was up, nothing. just a total botched, failed attempt, which totally bummed me out. I left to get cleaned and what happens? That's right he manually stimulates and bam...xfgbkgsdjlgs and he was just laughing!

WTTFFFFF. I really don't even know what to think, i am so angry. I seriously just feel like giving up this month. i don't even want to talk to him... feel like such a failure . Why now?! CD14...ovulation...wasted.

I am so sorry.

Perhaps it was performance anxiety? It makes sense, since he could finish when it no longer mattered. To laugh about it was insensitive but I can see why it happened, I think. Next time, dont let him know its O day. J always says to me that if he knows it is around the time he finds it difficult because its like there is pressure on him to perform!

good luck for next month

Aww chick
listen, don't get too down about it, there are plenty of sites on the net that will tell you that even if your man doesn't ejac he still releases some sperm during sex anyway!!! So it might not have been a total failure xx
What on earth made him finish the job of by hand anyway ??? That was a bit shitty wasn't it!! for you babe and good luck

Dont get mad - make up and go again hun. You havent missed out at all.

x

thanks girls. I still feel awful, not only about that, but i was stressed about other things, and now i just feel like the day is totally ruined. i can't stop being angry! i don't like being angry but i feel like i can't help it! It's like PMS came early!

So sorry

Try not to get to upset about it, this thing happens with us quite alot, it can be frustrating but ive just accepted that sometimes my oh just isnt into it sometimes, same as sometimes im just not into it.

I fully fully understand your frustration - my DH and I didnt manage to get it right either this month - and I was miserable about it all day. I feel like I practically have to beg for it around ovulation time each month - sometimes it feels like you are carrying the burden on your own - not as a couple.

I dont think my DH will ever care about ttc or obsess about it as much as me and I have tried to come to terms with that as i really dont want our marriage to be ruined. All we do is seem to argue about it lately.

Please dont get too upset about missing today - if you BD'd a few days ago the sperm could still be alive and there is always tomorrow.

Its just a pile of crap situation that we are all in - we spend the first half of our cycle just waiting for this point and then if it doesnt go right (actually even if it does!!) we spend the next half obsessing about it till the bloomin witch arrives.

Whenever it all starts to get me down I allow myself a day of feeling sorry for myself, have a good cry - and a stupid amount of chocolate - and then promise myself that I will wake up the next day and move on.



I fully understand why you are mad with him - but try to draw a line under it and give it a good go tomorrow - it'll be worth it.

x x x x