Hi Ladies,

Anyone who has been ttc for a while knows how emotional, upsetting and down right frustrating it can be!

A friend of mine years ago used to go to anger management (nothing to do with ttc). Anyway, a great tip he was given is to right things down - like a swear book which apparently is very theraputic. So here goes.....

I HAVE BEEN TTC FOR NEARLY A YEAR AND I AM SICK TO DEATH OF IT. I HATE OPKS, I HATE TEMPING EACH MORNING, I HATE SYMPTOM SPOTTING, I HATE PUTTING MY LIFE ON HOLD UNTIL I GET MY BFP, I HATE FEELING LIKE A FAILURE, I HATE THE FACT THAT SEX HAS BECOME A BABY MAKING EXCERCISE AND ALMOST A CHORE, I HATE HEARING PEOPLE I KNOW ARE PREGNANT WHEN THEY HAVE JUST STARTED TTC, I HATE FEELING GUILTY AFTER 1 GLASS OF WINE, I HATE BFNS AND MORE THAN ANYTHING I F*****G HATE THE !!

I JUST WANT TO GET PREGNANT!!

Arghhh, that feels much better! Anyone care to join me in letting go of frustrations?

x x x

I HATE MEN AND THEIR INSECURITIES, AND THEIR UTTER STUPIDITY! I HATE NOT BEING TRUSTED FOR NO REASON! I HATE HIS FAMILY LOAD OF MONEY SUCKING LEECHES OUT FOR WHAT THEY CAN GET AS LONG AS THEY CAN BACKSTAB THEIR WAY THERE!! I HATE THAT HIS EX IS SUPER BLOODY FERTILE AND THAT IT'S BEEN NEARLY A YEAR AND I CAN'T, I HATE THAT SHE GOT PREGNANT AFTER A WEEK OF DATING, I HATE PEOPLE WHO DONT APPRECIATE THEIR BABIES, I HATE SEEING BFN EVERY MONTH OR THE UGLY WITCH AND I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO TELL THE WORLD!!!

AND I HATE AF PAINS WHEN SHES NOT EVEN HERE!! ARGHHHHHHHHH!!! OH AND I HATE PEOPLE SAYING I HAVE PMT!! THANKS FOR BLOODY REMINDING ME!!!!



Arwww that was lovely you feeling better hun? When did you start ttc? x x

I HATE FEELING STRESSED, I HATE 'S, AND THE BLOODY , I HATE THE FACT I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE, I HATE FEELING LIKE IM BROKEN, I HATE NOT KNOWING WHEN I WILL GET MY , I HATE IT THAT PEOPLE ARE FALLING PREGANANT WHEN THEY DONT WANT A BABY, I HATE THE FACT I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT WHY I HAVENT GOT MY , I HATE THIS WHOLE SITUATION, I HATE FEELING EMOTINALLY UNSTABLE BECAUSE OF THIS SITUATION, BUT I DO LOVE MY OH VERY VERY MUCH!!!!!!, BUT I HATE BTHE FACT I FEEL LIKE IM LETTING HIM DOWN EVERY MONTH!!!!!


Thanks feel a little better now!!!!!

although think i need a good cry to vent my frustrations

I HATE FEELING SO SHITTY ALL THE TIME CAUSE I HAVENT GOT A BFP AFTER A 16 MONTHS OF TRYING.. I HATE HOW MY CYCLES ARE SO IRREGULAR, I HATE HOW MANY MOST OF MY MATES GET CAUGHT PREGNANT BY ACCIDENT, I HATE HOW MY FAMILY SAY IT WILL HAPPEN DONT STRESS, HOW THE HELL CAN YOU NOT STRESS WHEN YOUR NOT STRESSING..ARHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

I HATE HOW PEOPLE HAVE LOADS OF KIDS BUT DONT GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT THEM, I HATE HOW I KNOW MY SISTER RUBS MY FACE IN IT EVERY TIME I SPEAK TO HER CAUSE SHE IS PREGNANT AND HASNT BEEN TRYING AS LONG AS I HAVE, AND ITS HER 2ND.. ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGG

I HATE FEELING I CANT LOOK AT PREGNANT WOMEN CAUSE IM JEALOUS AND GOING TO CRY, I HATE HOW MY OH SAYS IT WILL HAPPEN OR GOOD THINGS COME TO THOESE WHO WAIT..ITS BEEN 16 FREAKING MONTHS AND IM STILL FOOKIN WAITING

I HATE SYMTON SPOTTING WHEN I WOULDNT KNOW WOT TO SYMTON SPOT FOR, I HATE THE FACT I HAVENT EVER IN MY LIFE SEEN TWO PINK LINES ON A TEST, I HATE HOW I FEEL I AM NOT EVEN A REAL WOMAN CAUSE I CANT OR HAVENT GOTTEN PREGNANT.

Wow i feel better!xx

I love this post! I feel everything you are saying, it has been 4.5 years and I too have never seen two pink lines on a test..... so .....

I HATE TTC!!!!!!!!!!!

I HATE THE FACT I GOT PREGNANT AND NEVER KNEW UNTIL I WAS 12 WEEKS AND I THOUGHT HMMM WHATS THAT - THE UTERUS POKING OUT !!! I HATE THAT I DONT KNOW MY BODY AND THAT AT 25 IM STILL TRYING TO LEARN, I HATE THAT THE BABY IS NOW GONE EVEN THOUGH IT WAS WITH THE WRONG PERSON, I HATE THE FACT I MANAGED TO GET PREGNANT WITH THE WRONG PERSON AND NOT MY OH YET, I HATE THAT MY OH ALREADY HAS A CHILD TO HIS EX, I HATE THAT MY BABY WONT BE MY OH'S FIRST, I HATE THAT MY OH CANT BE HERE WHEN I AM OVULATING, I HATE THAT MY OH CANT BE HERE RIGHT NOW FULL STOP, I HATE THAT I HAVE RESORTED TO CBFM AND A THERMOMETER TO REASSURE ME THAT I AM NOT BROKEN, I HATE THAT I WAKE UP THINKING ABOUT MY LOST BABY AND FEEL GUILTY FOR FEELING THAT SOMETIMES IT MIGHT'VE BEEN THE BEST THING TO HAPPEN, I HATE THAT I HAVE TO SEE ALL MY FRIENDS WITH THEIR KIDS AND SHARING STORIES WITH EACH OTHER AND I HAVE NOTHING TO TALK TO THEM ABOUT, I HATE HOW I LOG ONTO FACEBOOK JUST TO SEE THE PICTURES OF THEIR CHILDREN AND HOW I WISH I COULD POST SOME OF MY OWN FOR PEOPLE TO COMMENT ON, I HATE THAT I CAN FEEL OR KNOW WHEN THE OLD HAG AF IS COMING AND WHEN SHE GETS ME I CRY AND LIE IN BED ALL DAY, I HATE THAT MY FRIENDS WHO DO KNOW ABOUT MY LOSS ARE SCARED TO BRING IT UP INCASE I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT, I HATE PEOPLE WHO BRING IT UP THAT HAVE NO RIGHT TALKING ABOUT IT, I HATE SEEING JUNKIES WITH KIDS, OR PEOPLE WHO DONT APPRECIATE KIDS AND DRAG THEM UP RATHER THAN BRING THEM UP, IM SORRY BUT THIS NEXT ONE HAS TO BE SAID - I HATE THAT FOREIGN PEOPLE HAVE WHAT SEEMS LIKE INVADED OUR COUNTRY AND ARE POPPING OUT BABIES LEFT RIGHT AND CENTRE JUST SO THEY CAN CLAIM OFF THE BENEFIT SYSTEM!!, I HATE THE SINKING FEELING YOU GET WHEN YOU GET A BFN, I HATE THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET WHAT I SAW AND THE SHEER PAIN OF LOSING A CHILD EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY- AND THEN LEAVING THE HOSPITAL EMPTY HANDED AND FEELING LIKE YOU'VE JUST BEEN EMPTIED OUT

There is so much that frustrates me - but i will stop there for fear of having the longest list so far lol!

I HATE THAT ATM I'M ON FOOKIN AF AND I CANT LIKE EVEN TRY FOR A :BFP: I HAVE TO WAIT TIL LIKE END OF NEXT WEEK LOL. AND ITS ONLY BEEN 2 MONTHS AND I'M SOOO FOOKIN FUSTRATED ALREADY, LIKE YOU DONT KNOW HOW MUCH. I'M SCARED SOMETHINGS WRONG WITH ME LIKE DOWN THERE LOL. AND I LOVE AND HATE HOW SURPPORTIVE OH IS. LIKE YEA I CANT EXPLAIN THE HATE PART LOL. I HATE WHEN PPL SAY I'M YOUNG ( 18 ) AND V.FERTILE, SO WHYS IT NOT FUCKIN HAPPENING YET AND HATE THERES WEIRDLY ONLY 20% OF CATCHING THE EGG ANYWAY ARGHH, I GOT PREG INE ONE SHOT LAST NIGHT MC =[. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

relief lolololololol

Ladies,

I actually feel better this afternoon after listing my frustrations! Also, feel better reading that you guys feels the same so I am not the only one feeling despair (it sometimes feels like that doesn't it!).

Just thought of another one....I HATE HAVING LONG IRREGULAR CYCLES WHICH MEANS NOT ONLY DO I HAVE THE 2WW BUT I ALSO HAVE THE 4WW WAITING FOR FOOKING O TO ACTUALLY HAPPEN...I ALSO HATE THAT MY OH OFTEN WORKS AWAY SO WHEN HE 4WW IS FINALLY UP HE IS WORKING AWAY OVER THE DAYS I NEED HIS

Sam x x

is it just me or does anybody else think that the smilie for sperm looks menacing???!

I just thought that when I put one in my last post!! They look like right evil little B*****DS. They look like they would swim in the wrong direction on purpose which is why we never get our BFPs!!!!