blessedbylife

well, i was so excited friday when i went to wipe and (1 day before af was due) i'm wet (tmi, i know) ussually dry by this time, and same yesterday, wet, but no AF! now today i feel wet, but i'm dry (confusing, i know) and i have this dull, achy feeling, not like AF cramps, but i am pretty much sure AF is just taking her sweet time to make me feel worse when she gets here...

did i mention i'm supposed to fly home wednesday to see my family for thanksgiving?! with my luck AF will come right there on the damn plane...

i've felt dizzy, nauseas, been smelling things better and have had sore bbs for over 2 weeks, and i am so scared that AF is coming to get me!!! i want that BFP SO BAD!!!

sorry for ranting, just needed to get it all out, hubby (navy) has duty today so it's just me and lily's in bed....

wanting1more

sorry you are feeling down, I get that way too, just wanted you to know you are not alone..

I hope the stays away!

good luck to you

blessedbylife

thank so much, just really sucks because i had a friend telling me i was "baby obssessed" and it was too early to have another... blah blah blah, then whatdaya know? she's pregnant!... uggg.. well, hopefully we can all get what we want!

wanting1more

sometimes people say really stupid things to us, they have no idea, someone told me once i needed to just be happy I have children, but who are they to say.. we have to just ignore negative people like that.. lol maybe she will have a colicky baby just kidding I would not wish that on any baby but lol i do wish it of a few mean adults

blessedbylife

yeah, she is just mean i guess... and i am so greatful for my daughter, she was 7 wks early so i'm VERY greatful for her! my preg's are high risk so i'm going to go through alot (hence the reason why so soon and so 'young') i just wish i knew and then i wish it sticks!!!

wanting1more

I hear ya I have had 2 miscarriages, so i will go from wanting a BFP to 9 months of paranoia.

for us both

blessedbylife

i'm so sorry i've had my share of miscarrying, but it's because my uterus is heart shaped, so implatation has to be in the perfect spot, and even then, i'll always have a preemie, and a 9/10 chance of a c-section... but totally worth it!

wanting1more

i was never told why i miscarried, the first time i was only 6 or 7 weeks, i was able to recover quickly and got pregnant right away, the next time i was 20 weeks, I did not know until the scan where i was to find the gender, that time is was not ok for a while. they did an autopsy and all but never found a cause, they were able to tel me she was a baby girl but that was it.. after a ton of follow up they said it was unlikely to happen again.. when i got pregnant again 3 years later I was paranoid. so much so the morning of the gender scan i threw up so much i was weak, I almost did not go. had it not been for my OH I would not of went. i cried my eyes out on the table when they told me it was a boy and he was just fine the rest of the pregnancy went a bit better.

I know if/when i get a BFP i will be a mess till after at least 20 weeks.

I have never had a premie in fact the only one of mine that came on time was my last and he was a section due to being breech, the others had to be induced at 42 weeks..

i agree though a section is totally worth it if thats what you have to do to get a healthy baby. I imagine a preemie would be a bit scary to have, how early were you with your last one?

blessedbylife

she was 7 wks early, and i had been on bedrest for 2, almost 3 months. i was fully dialted, for 2 days before my OB broke my water, and i had her vaginally (thankfully)...
she stayed in the NICU for 20 days and it was the hardest thign ever to go home from the hospital WITHOUT my baby... i sat in her room that night and cried my eyes out... and i'm well prepared to do it all over again! i know it'll be hard for alot of us when we do get our BFP, kinda crazy how without this site i felt like no one else understood what i was going through!