hi girls...well after a very long & emotional 16mths of ttc this was my 1st round of clomid, 50mg days 2-6...started the cycle so positively, especially when i had the follicule tracking & all was good.....af was due this wed coming & like every mth my spotting has started bang on time, 3 days b4 I just dont see how we can go on like this anymore, i just feel like crying but trying to hold it all in & i dont wanna ruin the weekend. I dont know what else we can do, i was on clomid & epo this cycle, dh has been taking fertile aid 4 men ( has now swapped to wellmans as cheaper!!) we dont go out drinking anymore....i still think the spotting i have & the back ache i get every mth waaayyyy b4 af is due has something to do with me not conceiving...this mth it was 5dpo the backache started....if i got this just b4 af was due i could understand but not even a week after ive ovulated surely this is a sign somethings up????? had all the tests going & progesterone levels seem fine....im sure that the levels are dropping too quickly or something????

dh has been really supportive & said that we should go for iui now.....ive still got another 2 mths of clomid but i dunno if its worth doing?? they said i was ovulating even b4 the clomid....i didnt feel any different while on the clomid so it prob didnt even do anything different to me!! Does anyone think i should take 100mg clomid next mth instead of the 50mg??? & in jan say ive lost that mths clomid & ask 4 that mths prescription?? Im just sooo tired of getting upset like this but i know i dont want to give up, my daughter is nearly 4 & i will try everything to give her a bro or sis

there is an open evening on wed at the fertility center near us which we are going to go to, & have booked a consultation with them on the 14th dec to discuss iui......hopefully we can start in jan, fingers crossed.

xxx

i am sorry you are having a hard time..

Hi sweetie! i'm so sorry you didn't catch the egg this month! I'd say try again with the clomid while you're waiting for other options. I don't know a whole lot about IUI, but will it work if you're not getting a good egg out there? This question might be better on the LTTC b/c those girls know a TON about this stuff.
I wish you two the best.

Sorry this has been a tough journey for you...makes me feel stupid feeling so miserable on my 3rd cycle. I was going to suggest low progesterone when you said about spotting etc. but I see you have already been tested for that. Hopefully you will get some answers at the fertility centre. Sorry I can't be more help. x

thanks 4 ur replies.....ive had a good cry & me & dh had a chat..he said lets try the iui if the fertility center say its an option & then give ivf 1 try then we need to stop ttc....

his sister just txt & said come round ( she had a baby in sept ) & he said ok.....he asked me to go & i said i couldnt....i feel awful 4 not going but i just cope today seeing babies....he begged me to, saying he wanted to go as a family....i cried & he said ok.....he has popped out, think he will pop round, hope he does, i dont want him to miss out on seeing his neice...i just cant cope with putting a brave face/fake smile on today...

i feel so bad feeling this way...i should just be enjoying life, i know my life is great really, have a beautiful daughter who is nearly 4, wonderful husband, a lovely house, im lucky that i do not have to work ( by the way im not on benefits b4 anyone is wondering!) we have been on 2 lovely holidays this year & a few mini breaks away....but there is still this 1 thing that always is at the back of my mind.....worrying me.....bugging me....upsetting me.....not being able to conceive #2

xx

I know exactly how you feel. I'm on cycle 19 and haven't got a clue what is going on this month. I normally have spotting a few days before AF but this month I've had spotting since day 18! I think AF is definitely on the way as it's now day 26 and I have those little niggly stomach cramps. This cycle was my first one with natural folicle tracking which I'm trying for a couple of months before going onto Clomid. I normally ovulate around day 14 to 15 but this month when I went to the hospital on day 13 they said I'd already ovulated!
I truly understand the emotional rollarcoaster you are on.
x

I'm sorry you're having such a horrible time, dancingkaty. Have you tried looking at the thread called Increasing Your Fertility Chances Naturally? There are all sorts of ideas on there... things you should start doing, things you shoudl stop doing, supplements to help with various things and advice about what might be causing specific problems. There are excerpts from the Zita West book (might it be worth looking at it?) I keep hearing about and also quotes from people going through various treatments.

Have you considered trying acupuncture maybe? I'm having my first session tomorrow, to help with #2.

I know exactly what you mean about ttc being an obsession. Doesn't matter what I'm doing, the thought is always there. I'm with you on the avoidance of babies as well - sometimes you feel you need to protect yourself, don't you?

Hope you have a better day tomorrow.
Abi x