So frustrated, i hate waiting

kstancook · Oct 10th, 2009, 19:21 PM

Ok, I know it only been 33 CD since my period but I just want to know if AF is ever coming? I mean I feel like I am in grade school again waiting to be a lady like all my friends again!!!!

This is my first cycle of BCP and I hate not being able to plan or know anything my body is doing. Temps dont work because I started CD 28 thinking AF was going to come and all

tests this week.

Sorry just needed to vent to someone who understands, like you all. I dont know what I would do without this website. Advice? or can someone give me their patience

PS can you change your user id at all? Just wondering?

kstancook · Oct 10th, 2009, 19:46 PM

and now I am crying..DH just asked what I want to do tonite and have for dinner and I said that I dont know, dont feeling like making a decision
DH: fine just stay on the computer all night and you have to be mad at me
Me: I am not mad then tears!!!
I hate the waiting and not knowing what is going on! and its only 1st cycle!!! I am just frustrated!

NGRidley · Oct 10th, 2009, 19:56 PM

I know it is hard by try to not get yourself worked up. If this is how you are feeling now, think about how you may be months from now if it doesnt happen.

Yes it does really suck waiting for AF, but because you just came off BCP, you dont really know when AF will come.

You cannot count your cycles when you were on BCP because they were not real cycles as you don't ovulate (and are just having breakthrough bleed).

When I came off BCP I got my breakthrough bleed 6 days later
than month 1 was 29 day cycle
month 2 39 day cycle.

BCP can really mess up your cycle which can be very very frustrating to us TTC, i know.

Just try to stay stong, and keep posting. There are a lot of people here who are going through the same things as you.

GOOD LUCK!!

kstancook · Oct 10th, 2009, 20:10 PM

Thanks I know I need to work on patience. The drs just diagnosed me with endometries in August after months of being poked and proded and surgery!!! So I feel like the odds are against me and I just dont want to lose too much time where I have no eggs left...I dont want to not be able to have kids

I just want to be a mother...

mrskcbrown · Oct 10th, 2009, 23:55 PM

You will be a mother. Thank God that you found out that you have endo. Some people go on never knowing what's going on. I recently found out I have PCOS, so believe me I feel your pain. Are you on any meds or doing totally natural cycles?

Try not to have the defeatist attitude. Once your AF comes,(hopefully it doesnt and you are BFP), you will probably be more able to accurately figure out your cycle. Also men dont fully understand the pain of wanting to be a mother. Have a heart to heart with DH and tell him truly your pain. He loves you and wants to be in your corner! Hope that helps, thats what we are here for. <<<<<HUGZ>>>>>

vkj73 · Oct 11th, 2009, 01:07 AM

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Originally Posted by kstancook

Ok, I know it only been 33 CD since my period but I just want to know if AF is ever coming? I mean I feel like I am in grade school again waiting to be a lady like all my friends again!!!!

This is my first cycle of BCP and I hate not being able to plan or know anything my body is doing. Temps dont work because I started CD 28 thinking AF was going to come and all

tests this week.

Sorry just needed to vent to someone who understands, like you all. I dont know what I would do without this website. Advice? or can someone give me their patience

PS can you change your user id at all? Just wondering?

i totally get it. i didn't get my period 'till later than other girls, so always felt a little "different". now most of my friends have kids who are a least in kinder.
i'm in the final week wait myself. it will happen for us though. i'm sending you lots of pma from california

btw, i emailed bnb a while back about changing user id, never heard back.

for you and all!!!

kstancook · Oct 11th, 2009, 10:43 AM

Thanks everyone!!! Sorry I was just having a "Ihate the world day and pity party". Thanks for listening, I am stronger than all of this and will be fine. i guess since friends and family cant know what is going on, my DH gets tired of being the only one I turn too. Thank God for this website and you guys!

vkj73 · Oct 11th, 2009, 14:46 PM

looks like we're testing around the same time. i'm next saturday

i have a long cycle too. not so fun for the tww.

Oct 10th, 2009, 19:21 PM	#1
kstancook Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Illinois Posts: 4,275	So frustrated, i hate waiting Ok, I know it only been 33 CD since my period but I just want to know if AF is ever coming? I mean I feel like I am in grade school again waiting to be a lady like all my friends again!!!! This is my first cycle of BCP and I hate not being able to plan or know anything my body is doing. Temps dont work because I started CD 28 thinking AF was going to come and all tests this week. Sorry just needed to vent to someone who understands, like you all. I dont know what I would do without this website. Advice? or can someone give me their patience PS can you change your user id at all? Just wondering?

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Oct 10th, 2009, 19:46 PM	#2
kstancook Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Illinois Posts: 4,275	and now I am crying..DH just asked what I want to do tonite and have for dinner and I said that I dont know, dont feeling like making a decision DH: fine just stay on the computer all night and you have to be mad at me Me: I am not mad then tears!!! I hate the waiting and not knowing what is going on! and its only 1st cycle!!! I am just frustrated!

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Oct 10th, 2009, 19:56 PM	#3
NGRidley Trying to conceive (TTC) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Ontario Canada Posts: 2,372	I know it is hard by try to not get yourself worked up. If this is how you are feeling now, think about how you may be months from now if it doesnt happen. Yes it does really suck waiting for AF, but because you just came off BCP, you dont really know when AF will come. You cannot count your cycles when you were on BCP because they were not real cycles as you don't ovulate (and are just having breakthrough bleed). When I came off BCP I got my breakthrough bleed 6 days later than month 1 was 29 day cycle month 2 39 day cycle. BCP can really mess up your cycle which can be very very frustrating to us TTC, i know. Just try to stay stong, and keep posting. There are a lot of people here who are going through the same things as you. GOOD LUCK!!

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Oct 10th, 2009, 20:10 PM	#4
kstancook Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Illinois Posts: 4,275	Thanks I know I need to work on patience. The drs just diagnosed me with endometries in August after months of being poked and proded and surgery!!! So I feel like the odds are against me and I just dont want to lose too much time where I have no eggs left...I dont want to not be able to have kids I just want to be a mother...

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Oct 10th, 2009, 23:55 PM	#5
mrskcbrown Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: MISSISSIPPI (dA DuRtY sOuTh) Posts: 5,300	You will be a mother. Thank God that you found out that you have endo. Some people go on never knowing what's going on. I recently found out I have PCOS, so believe me I feel your pain. Are you on any meds or doing totally natural cycles? Try not to have the defeatist attitude. Once your AF comes,(hopefully it doesnt and you are BFP), you will probably be more able to accurately figure out your cycle. Also men dont fully understand the pain of wanting to be a mother. Have a heart to heart with DH and tell him truly your pain. He loves you and wants to be in your corner! Hope that helps, thats what we are here for. <<<<<HUGZ>>>>>

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Oct 11th, 2009, 10:43 AM	#7
kstancook Mum (Mom) BnB Addict Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Illinois Posts: 4,275	Thanks everyone!!! Sorry I was just having a "Ihate the world day and pity party". Thanks for listening, I am stronger than all of this and will be fine. i guess since friends and family cant know what is going on, my DH gets tired of being the only one I turn too. Thank God for this website and you guys!

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Oct 11th, 2009, 14:46 PM	#8
vkj73 Mum (Mom) Active BnB Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: california Posts: 763	looks like we're testing around the same time. i'm next saturday i have a long cycle too. not so fun for the tww.

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