puppymom32

So I have decided that I am going to stop everything. Like I did before. Last Nov I stopped all the drugs and obsessing and just decided that what is going to happen is going to happen. I then fell pregnant in April naturally. Had and ectopic and since then have been even more obsessed started temping and adding more drugs to the mix. I am going to stop the temping, OPK's, the Metformin and baby asprin. I am going to keep taking my prenatal vits and epo CD1-12 no more testing before AF is due and symptom spotting every little twinge. I am just gonna let whatever is gonna happen happen. No more timing BDing and worrying about what I do in the 2WW. I am just going to live my life and if I wasnt meant to be a mom than so be it. All this stress is making me mad. I am so moody and not fun to be around. I wouldnt be my friend. Tired of all the disappointment and heartache. All of this has taken a strain on my relationship and I just need to be me.

dt1234565

Hey babe, i can see you have had a rough ride of it.

I think you are doing the right thing for the state of your sanity.

I wish you all the best and hope your new stragedy works for you.

In the meantime live your life to its fullest and try to act like a teenager for a bit (loads of them fall easy enough!)

Wishing you lots of love and luck

puppymom32

Thanks Dt it has worked pretty much everytime. I will MC and then get obsessive again and then stop and get pg again and then MC. I always think maybe there is something I can do to stop the MC from happening again but the truth is I cant if it is going to happen then it is going to happen. I am so tired of feeling like $hit all the time taking the meds and not getting anything in return. I had given up pretty much all caffeine for the last 6 mo and this morning I had a Latte it tasted so good.

Twinmad

Aww!!! Babe... it's probably for the best to give your body a break, like you said, it's happened before so you CAN do it naturally so i'm keeping everything crossed for the both of you...and next time, the little beanie will setup base in ur uterus and no where else.... Huge

puppymom32

dont worry I am still gonna be on here stalking all of you. I will still need something to obsess over just not me anymore. LOL

dt1234565

Have you had checks to see if they can do any more to help you?

Liz2

I like this idea!!! And I hope that it works for you cause you sure deserve it!!! Good luck hon!!

puppymom32

I've been tested so much for everything I have PCO with regular periods and no other symptoms. Dr thought the tube could have been the problem but the tube has been removed since April and still nothing. I was taking the Met to help with the PCO but when I feel pg in April I was not on the Met so my PCO must not be too bad. I dont have any CM so I know that is a problem and hoping the EPO will help with that but I didnt have CM when I got pg in April so all finger were pointing to the tube. I know that I ovulate on my good side because I can feel it. So not sure now. Hoping it is just the stress that is causing the remaing issues. I have mild endo and a small fibriod but the Dr said it shouldnt be an issue. My insurance doesnt cover any fertility treatment so thus far everything has been out of pocket. Each scan cost me like 150.00 USD. So I have decided to just let nature take its course. I know my tube does work because I have had 2 regular MC so who knows right now classed as unexplained fertility.

puppymom32

Thanks Liz. I hope it does the trick again. At least now I know pretty much when I ovulate and that I do which is a good thing. Wasnt even sure if I did before. I just get so down when I Ovulate on the wrong side and I know if I wasnt paying so much attention I probably wouldnt even notice.

Liz2

I am not doing anything either. I know when I ovulate but other then that I don't chart, temp or do OPKs!! So I am a buddy with you there!!!! I will cheer you on!!!