Today I am a little sad. I feel so out of control of my own fertility right now. This is the first time that I have felt this way since going to the doctor but I guess it was bound to happen.

I feel so left out when everyone is talking about their cycles and BBT. I can't even join in the conversations or even act like I know what is going on because I don't really understand it all. I have never even had cycles closer than 4-6 months apart unless I was on BCP's so I have never had the opportunity to check when I O and that in itself is the most frustrating thing to me. Hell, I do not even know when I should be BDing right now. It is all like a shot in the dark.

I know the doctor says that TTC is a long process but I am so having trouble being patient sometimes. Thank god the doctor said that if I am not regular in 3 months, we will jump start my periods with Provera(?) and then go to Clomid where they will do ultrasounds to know exactly when I O.

I guess today I just need a little support. Sorry for being all emo.

You don't need to apologise. Sorry you're feeling so low today, sending you lots of good vibes and a big

big hugs hun sorry i cant say anything that'll help... but do moan/sulk/shout/chat rubbish whenever you like!

Completely normal feelings

Aww hope you feel better soon

All the best and I hope the arrives soon for you (wow there's something I never thought I'd say). You will be on the TTC journey before you know it... well you practically already are!

Most of us here dont feel in control of our fertility regardless of the individual situation - thats why we come here!! Even those of us with 'normal' cycles etc get frustrated at times. Dont worry - come here for a moan anytime.

I kinda understand but mine is for different reasons because I have 3 children and had absolutely no problem conceiving them. My youngest is 15 and now my OH and I are ttc after a tubal reversal. We have been trying sonce 5-07 and nothing yet!
I hope things start looking up for you and sending you lots of ! Good luck and vent, that's what B&B is for!

hope you will feel better soon sending you lots of XOXOXO

Thanks guys. I had myself a good cry when I posted it... Okay... so maybe I am still crying a little but but thanks so much for the support.

I don't know anyone in RL that is TTC or has even had trouble TTC in the past so I am so glad I found this board full of such awesome women. You guys make me feel better.

Thanks so much