This is madness im obsessed!!!!

Lou 1st Time · Aug 17th, 2009, 06:04 AM

Hello all...this is just a bit of a rant at myself really!

This is mine and my o/h first month of TTC! I have been on the pill since i was 17/18 and am terrified that i wont be able to conceive.

I have never wanted children and have been pretty child hating most my life

i know terrible arent i! I just have never had the maternal feeling i guess!

Something over the last few months has just kicked in though! i dont really know how to explain it (im sorry if this is sounding mad)

Everytime I see a baby or pregnant mother i get all teary now!

i have never ever been like this! I am obsessed! I have been having mad dreams about children etc! I dont know......!! I dont understand how i can suddenly want something i never have had?

Im just feeling so strange! Its just a mad emotional trip at the moment and was wondering if anyone else feels like this?

xx

buffy · Aug 17th, 2009, 06:11 AM

Hi sweetie! This happened to me as well when i got into my twenties and it was the strangest thing ever! I never used to have any interest in babies. I guess i always thought i would have one one day, but generally was not interested in other people's kids, never wanted to be near them, hold them, play with them or any of that then all of a sudden "BANG!" i was looking in prams and getting that warm fuzzy feeling, stairing at babies in restaurants etc and going all gooey eyed! I don't know how or why it happens, but I think it eventually catches us all!

Lou 1st Time · Aug 17th, 2009, 06:14 AM

I have a lot of aunts in their 40/50 who have no children as they have never wanted them and i thought thats where i got it from! my o/h was so shocked when i said i wanted to start ttc! i think he had started to accept that we wouldnt have children!

i just feel all over the place lol!

heathette · Aug 17th, 2009, 06:14 AM

Bless you hun!

Its lovely that your feeling this, its your body and mind's way of telling you that your are ready to be a mummy!

I always knew one day I would want and have children, hubby has been wanting them for a long time. I'm 25 and hes 28 and many of his friends have started making babies.. since we got engaged my broodyness went through the roof! We got married in June and have been trying since. Seeing him with our friends baby girl makes my heart melt - and i know what you mean about teary!! He looks so beautiful with her its adorbale, and just makes me want one of our own so much!!! The other day we were out to lunch with them, he was holding her at the table and i saw him bend down and smell her little head, got me that did!

Good luck and baby dust to you! xx

Carrie29 · Aug 17th, 2009, 06:15 AM

Hey, i know exactly how you feel!.. i spent 10 years on the pill, never thinking about kids and now that i've only been trying for 9 weeks, it's all i can think about. I keep seeing people with bumps or with babies and i just think how lucky there are... i would never of had those thoughts a few months ago!.. i guess the biological clock really does start ticking!.. i watched the film Marley and Me the other day and it's so sweet but quite sad too and i'm like a big bag of emotions now..

Pimms · Aug 17th, 2009, 06:23 AM

Same here, im 30 and never wanted children and when my sis had one at 27 i thought she was completely mad!!!! Ive also said to hubby that i dont want children and never will do and was considering getting sterilsed and then one day said I WANT A BABY!. I have been obsessed ever since

Lou 1st Time · Aug 17th, 2009, 06:25 AM

god i know what you all mean!!! anything and everything is making me cry at the minute! i cried at flipping king kong the other day which isnt sad at all! and i mean really sobbed my heart out! lol!

i always told everyone that my clock would never kick in as i was so set against it! but all of a sudden it did!

I know what you mean about your o/h and children. when i see my o/h around our friends two little ones it just makes me want one a million times more!!

i just cant believe that i have changed so much since april/may! i would never even dreamt id ever feel like this lol!!

good luck everyone - i hope this is your lucky month xx

buffy · Aug 17th, 2009, 06:32 AM

Ah yes, I get that watching my OH with our little niece. She's 18 months now and he's really cute with her. I was watching him playing with her and feeding her at his mum and dads at the weekend and i felt like i was going to burst into tears as i'm so want to give him one of his own but am so scared it will never happen for us!! When we got home i could not stop crying for about 2 hours! I think he thought i was a nut job!

Lou 1st Time · Aug 17th, 2009, 07:14 AM

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Originally Posted by buffy

Ah yes, I get that watching my OH with our little niece. She's 18 months now and he's really cute with her. I was watching him playing with her and feeding her at his mum and dads at the weekend and i felt like i was going to burst into tears as i'm so want to give him one of his own but am so scared it will never happen for us!! When we got home i could not stop crying for about 2 hours! I think he thought i was a nut job!

my goodness!!! at last someone who feels the same!!!!
i get so worried that it wont happen for me/us!

when i know how much he wants to be a daddy!

does his family know you are trying?

i know what you mean i just keep on bursting into tears!!! for no reason at all! everyone must thing im crazy!!

555ann555 · Aug 17th, 2009, 08:06 AM

I was nearly in tears in Tesco's last week

They had a whole sale aisle of baby stuff, boxes of nappies, feeding bowls, stair gates, all the bits and pieces, and it just got to me that I might never get to buy those.

Thing is, I felt totally ambushed because it wasn't even in the baby aisles, they had used a different section of the store, so I wasn't expecting to see anything emptionally charged there!

I've been TTC for 20 cycles now (2 years in November) and it just feels like it is never going to happen

Aug 17th, 2009, 06:04 AM	#1
Lou 1st Time Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Bedfordshire Posts: 49	This is madness im obsessed!!!! Hello all...this is just a bit of a rant at myself really! This is mine and my o/h first month of TTC! I have been on the pill since i was 17/18 and am terrified that i wont be able to conceive. I have never wanted children and have been pretty child hating most my life i know terrible arent i! I just have never had the maternal feeling i guess! Something over the last few months has just kicked in though! i dont really know how to explain it (im sorry if this is sounding mad) Everytime I see a baby or pregnant mother i get all teary now! i have never ever been like this! I am obsessed! I have been having mad dreams about children etc! I dont know......!! I dont understand how i can suddenly want something i never have had? Im just feeling so strange! Its just a mad emotional trip at the moment and was wondering if anyone else feels like this? xx

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Aug 17th, 2009, 06:11 AM	#2
buffy Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: S W. Scotland Posts: 296	Hi sweetie! This happened to me as well when i got into my twenties and it was the strangest thing ever! I never used to have any interest in babies. I guess i always thought i would have one one day, but generally was not interested in other people's kids, never wanted to be near them, hold them, play with them or any of that then all of a sudden "BANG!" i was looking in prams and getting that warm fuzzy feeling, stairing at babies in restaurants etc and going all gooey eyed! I don't know how or why it happens, but I think it eventually catches us all!

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Aug 17th, 2009, 06:14 AM	#3
Lou 1st Time Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Bedfordshire Posts: 49	I have a lot of aunts in their 40/50 who have no children as they have never wanted them and i thought thats where i got it from! my o/h was so shocked when i said i wanted to start ttc! i think he had started to accept that we wouldnt have children! i just feel all over the place lol!

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Aug 17th, 2009, 06:14 AM	#4
heathette Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: South England Posts: 160	Bless you hun! Its lovely that your feeling this, its your body and mind's way of telling you that your are ready to be a mummy! I always knew one day I would want and have children, hubby has been wanting them for a long time. I'm 25 and hes 28 and many of his friends have started making babies.. since we got engaged my broodyness went through the roof! We got married in June and have been trying since. Seeing him with our friends baby girl makes my heart melt - and i know what you mean about teary!! He looks so beautiful with her its adorbale, and just makes me want one of our own so much!!! The other day we were out to lunch with them, he was holding her at the table and i saw him bend down and smell her little head, got me that did! Good luck and baby dust to you! xx

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Aug 17th, 2009, 06:15 AM	#5
Carrie29 Pregnant (Expecting) Active BnB Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Posts: 774	Hey, i know exactly how you feel!.. i spent 10 years on the pill, never thinking about kids and now that i've only been trying for 9 weeks, it's all i can think about. I keep seeing people with bumps or with babies and i just think how lucky there are... i would never of had those thoughts a few months ago!.. i guess the biological clock really does start ticking!.. i watched the film Marley and Me the other day and it's so sweet but quite sad too and i'm like a big bag of emotions now..

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Aug 17th, 2009, 06:23 AM	#6
Pimms Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: May 2009 Location: West Midlands Posts: 304	Same here, im 30 and never wanted children and when my sis had one at 27 i thought she was completely mad!!!! Ive also said to hubby that i dont want children and never will do and was considering getting sterilsed and then one day said I WANT A BABY!. I have been obsessed ever since

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Aug 17th, 2009, 06:25 AM	#7
Lou 1st Time Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Bedfordshire Posts: 49	god i know what you all mean!!! anything and everything is making me cry at the minute! i cried at flipping king kong the other day which isnt sad at all! and i mean really sobbed my heart out! lol! i always told everyone that my clock would never kick in as i was so set against it! but all of a sudden it did! I know what you mean about your o/h and children. when i see my o/h around our friends two little ones it just makes me want one a million times more!! i just cant believe that i have changed so much since april/may! i would never even dreamt id ever feel like this lol!! good luck everyone - i hope this is your lucky month xx

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Aug 17th, 2009, 06:32 AM	#8
buffy Trying to conceive (TTC) Active BnB Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: S W. Scotland Posts: 296	Ah yes, I get that watching my OH with our little niece. She's 18 months now and he's really cute with her. I was watching him playing with her and feeding her at his mum and dads at the weekend and i felt like i was going to burst into tears as i'm so want to give him one of his own but am so scared it will never happen for us!! When we got home i could not stop crying for about 2 hours! I think he thought i was a nut job!

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Aug 17th, 2009, 08:06 AM	#10
555ann555 Mum (Mom) Chat Happy BnB Member Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: North Lanarkshire Posts: 1,751	I was nearly in tears in Tesco's last week They had a whole sale aisle of baby stuff, boxes of nappies, feeding bowls, stair gates, all the bits and pieces, and it just got to me that I might never get to buy those. Thing is, I felt totally ambushed because it wasn't even in the baby aisles, they had used a different section of the store, so I wasn't expecting to see anything emptionally charged there! I've been TTC for 20 cycles now (2 years in November) and it just feels like it is never going to happen

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