Yeh, it's no secret that we're trying. We had a loss through ectopic in July last year.. We were trying for over a year before that as well. I remember when SIL got pregnant with our little niece feeling jealous becuase we had been trying for a good few cycles and nothing was happening. Can hardly believe she's 18 months old now and i'm still feeling jealous! It's got to happen soon! We are due some luck!! Had a suspected Chemical Pregnancy in June as well Was gutted, but sort of relieved as well as it showed that i could still get pregnant, even if bubs didn't want to stick!

I try not to show that i'm feeling down in front of the family though as i know there is nothing they can really do for me and i don't want to appear to be a drama queen. Also i'd hate my SIL to feel guilty about having the baby around me as I love seeing her. Sometimes i just get a little overwhelmed though - especially as the little one is the double of my OH and his brother (they are very alike!). I often wonder what our little one would look like!

Ah, I understand this chick. We're at about 2 and a half years now. Took 18 months to conceive the first one ectopic (so short lived happyness!) and exactly a year on i had a suspected chemical (even shorter lived happyness), so still bascially at the same place i started 2 and a half years ago, although we know we can conceive at least.. I just sometimes wonder if we're ever going to get it right!!

Sometimes just seeing baby parafanelia does get to me as well! It depends if i'm having a particularly hormonal day! Some days seem to be worse than others - it doesn't even necessarily have to be in the run up to my period - just seem to get mad emotional days sometimes! xx

My boyf sister is pregnant now too which is hard! I put on a brave face and pretend that it doesnt bother me but it really really does
Especially when she is buying baby clothes and cots and push chairs etc! it is a horrible feeling inside!

Im so sorry to hear about everyones struggles! makes me feel selfish for feeling the way i do sometimes! (ie so impatient)

I also got taken back a bit when i was in asda the other day as they had done exactly the same thing! agghhh!! I felt really shakey and didnt know what to do!

Another hard thing is that our nextdoor neighbour (who is joined to us) has a little baby and i hear him crying all of the time