I went to see my doc.

My uterus wasn't still clean.. The ultrasound showed remainings from the sac and I was just done with it and told doc to just remove it.

OMG, he did. He didnt even give me any kind of anesthesia.. the nurse just game me an injection on my bum and waited for the doc to come. He told me that what was about to perfom is called suction and curettage I was like
It hurted so bad that I was on tears the whole process holding the nurses' hand to tight. My DH couldnt make it as he was busy so I was there alone. It took about 10min to finish.. Why was I born as a GIRL!?!?!?!? We suffer so much!!

Anyway, he finished it and told me to lay down for 5 min. Then they called me to have another u/s and it showed my uterus to be clean.. then saw the doc and told me that I had a huge egg as if it didnt die but just grew what the hell does that suppose to mean? I asked him what should I do.. then he said that it doesnt worry him much but it can affect our TTC so he was like "I can prescribe for u to take BCP for a month until it disappears or u know what? there can be a possibility for it to disappear" Then I was like "isnt it better to take the pills??" then he was like "it doesnt measure much, it's only 1.5cm, I would worry if it was 4cm and above"

I dont know what is happening to me. All the bad luck has just been destinated to happen to me.. Why me.. what have I done to deserve all this, I swear I will make a great mother, my husband is the best man in the world.. what if his feelings change bec of whats happening to me? I know he wants a baby madly!

Anyway, the only good part is that doc told me to ttc from now, but next time if I get AF then I will have to see him at ovulation time to see if the huge egg is still there.. if yes, then I think I have to take the BCP for a month

I dont really know how worse this can get. I am just sitting here praying for something good to happen to me once and for all

Sorry for the long story, me and my silly miserable life.

I am soooo sorry Susan.

my heart breaks for you. I know it's hard, but try to think possitvely and stress free. I have come to learn that when stuff like this happens, we are not being punished...it's just the ups and downs of life. You will be in my thoughts through this hard time

Im sorry you are going through all of this.

Here is some good luck dust for the rest of 2008

I'm so sorry you've had to go through all of that.

I hope everything works out for you!. I'm so sorry you have to go through so much . It's never fun when a raincloud seems to be following you but I hope the sun starts to shine for you after your Doctor visit and TTC this month is a miracle for you!

Oh Suzan - it's been so up and down for you. We're all here for you x

I'm so sorry to hear that you are going through some difficulties. I hope next month you will be rid of all this and you can start a new TTC.

sorry hun, hope your ok xx

Aww Suzan i'm so sorry for what you're going through hopefully you can just get on with ttc very soon and not have any further complications x