After spending the whole weekend depressed have decided that this is a new year, things can only get better and am not going to buy any pregnancy tests anymore or think about ovulation, am just going to go with the flow, try shed a few pounds and start thinking really positively

I will look at the situation again when I hit the 18 month mark of ttc (as in the grand scheme of things I am over 30 so this is the norm) I HAVE to start thinking positive or its never gonna happen..
just wish that my period would come so i can have these FSH tests (although I dont really want it to come in the vain hope that i am pregnant lol)... but either ways shall perservere.
Thank you to everyone for your kind words and support. I wish you all the very very best and look forward to someone posting "I am pregnant" in this thread !!
Dee xxxx