Ive had spottting for 6 days...which ive never had before and it was a weird pink colour. I was really getting exctied that this was my month! I got my first positive opk aswell!

Well the bloody evil witch just arrived...on day 21!!! I feel like giving up my cycles are completely nuts theyve gone from 27, 32, 33, 24 and now 21! I find it hard to stay optimistic and i feel like my depression is coming back, i feel useless, stupid and overemotional, its ridiculous...its not like ive had a miscarriage or was pregnant for a couple of days!

Good luck to all you girls still waiting i really hope you get your BFPs and its great to have seen so many this month!

Hang in there, I know it's frustrating. Good luck getting your BFP in 2008!

I'm sorry Carolina! If you need to chat I'm always here. Have to spoke to a doctor about your cycles?

The depression does sometimes come and bite you on your @rse!!! Hang in there, You will get your BFP. I agree with justme00, you may want to see a doc about your cycles. (((((HUGS)))))

I think many of us get the blues when the comes along when you're wishing hard for that miracle baby of your dreams. You aren't useless, stupid, or any of those things! Your frustration now only shows just how much love you have for your future little one, love you want to GIVE and can't wait to!!!

I have very odd cycles myself...like you, i cannot keep track. I have not been TTCing *too* long, just a couple months and so far my efforts have been futile. I haven't talked to a gyn or anyone about it (the last time i talked to her about irregular cycles, BCP was the answer that was before i started trying for a family). Before i see a specialist i was going to try and just watch my CM build up over the month and try on the days that it seems to be more abundant. I can't say it'll work, but i figure it might be worth a try for me to do this month! Of course, talking to a specialist, if you choose to do so, should put you on the right course!

Good luck!

Ahh, keep going i know it's frustrating x

thanks guys i appreciate your support it made me cry again you are all so sweet! ive broken down in tears three times to day id ont know whats wrong with me im so overly emotional! I dont know whats goin on.

My cm or af flow always comes out if i have a bowel movement. I had a bowel movement at 1pm and when i wiped there was red bolld with a tiny dot of black. But i havnt had anything since but it was like af blood not the light pink/brown stuff ive had fr the last week and there was more of it o the tissue than ive had. In general looked like af but now nothing.

I really dont know whats going on and i am a bit worried. I have an appointment with a gynocologist in jan because i get really heavy and painful menses to the point where i nearly pass out ans sometimes cant go to work for a day or 2. My GP thinks it might be endometriosis. I came off bcp in sept to ttc so it could just be my periosd trying to regulate but this is really out of the ordinary for me.

I dont know what to think! My OH doesnt really seem to understand he says its not the end of the world, which i know it isnt but he doesnt realise that i think about it 24/7. I think sometimes guys dont understand what we go through or maybe its just my hormones talking!

My GP did bloods last cycle and said my hormones were normal i might go to the doctor after cmas just to let her know.

Sorry for the rant but OH is having a bad time with his job at the moment so i dont feel like I can tell him how bad i feel!

Hi,

don't worry too much you should maybe check out acupuncture after it may help regulate your cylces.

That period your having sounds weird are you sure it's not an implantation bled. I would double check if I was you!

Take care!

thats hat i thought it was all week and i was getting excited (which it tried not to but couldnt help) But because the blood today is red i dont think it could be. Can people get red blood with implantation. I dont have any cramps today and i egt bad cramps with af but my lower back is killing me. I did a test this morning which was a bfn but im finding it had to keep my urine concentrated because i keep waking uo in the middle of the night bursting for the toilet.

I do have a kind of cramp but it feels more like the sensation you get when you really need to pee except in my uterus. Dont think im pregnant though.