I feel so bad that you have been so upset! I have been there and understand your frustration and being disappointed. Your cycles are probably crazy because you just stopped bcp. Mine were like that after I stopped. Then out of no where I went almost 3 months without a period. That was weird, and the obgyn wasn't any help. My mom told me she has always had irregular periods and it was really hard for her ttc...I wish I could remember what my cycles were like before the bcp. I only remember having cramps and bleeding so bad, like you described, having to stay home and just curl up. I think it would be good to go see the doctor and see if there are any options for you. Acupuncture would be so awesome to try! I really like it! Also, I made parsley tea to help bring on my period when I was without for 2-3 months. Maybe try drinking some when you expect your period to be.
Nothing will stop your mind from thinking about ttc and how crappy you feel when you get that BFN! That is why it is so good to have an out let of some sort, thus this forum if anything!!! Just because you didn't conceive now doesn't mean you never will. Take a deep breathe and exhale! Keep yourself healthy and your mind strong!
