So I went to work today (I'm a sales assistant for a department store) and it was like any normal day. I went to get some stock from upstairs and I was just about to come down the stairs when I suddenly felt really dizzy so I lent on the bannister and then I just fell, all the way down the stairs. I think I must have blacked out or something because when I woke up there were like all these people around me going 'Your OK, the ambulance is on its way' and I put my hand up to my head and when I brought it down again it was covered in blood. So then I started getting well scared and I started crying so they called my mum and told her to meet me at the hospital.
And then I started thinking, what if the baby's not ok? What if I've hurt it? What if it's dying right now?
And once I'd started thinking about it, I couldn't stop. I just kept thinking that I had a baby in me, and I might have hurt it.
Then the ambulance came and the paramedics put me onto a stretcher and the they asked me loads of question about my head and stuff but all I could say to them was about my baby and they had to make sure that my baby was ok.
As soon as I got to hospital they took me into this room to wait for the doctor and I was just crying and crying and all I wanted was my boyfriend James and my mum. Then my mum came into the room and she was crying and she was like 'Ellie, whats going on? They told me you fell down the stairs, why are you here?' and I just did it, I said 'Mum, I'm pregnant'. She looked really shocked and then she hugged me really close and said 'My poor girl, you must have been so scared when you fell, everything will be ok. The baby will be ok'.
Then the doctor came in and put jelly across my stomach and I was so so scared that something would be wrong, that it wouldn't have made it. But after a little bit the doctor smiled and said 'There's your baby, and there's the heartbeat.'
Then James came in and he was like 'omg what's happened Ellie are u ok?', and I said 'yeh, I'm fine. Come and look at our baby' and he came and looked and my mum and the doctor gave us some time together and then suddenly everything just made sense.
And ok, I know its not going to be easy at all, and I might, well... I probably will miss out on stuff that I would have done. But being so scared that I might have hurt the baby, that I might have even killed it. And seeing it there on the screen, my child; it just changed everything. And I know that sounds cheesy and stupid but it did.
So me and James have decided that we're gona do this, we're going to have our baby and it's weird, I've gone from not knowing what to do, what was best to it being so so obvious what I want, and what I need.
Just wanted to share that with you guys as you've all been so supportive and lovely and to let you know that I'm gona be sticking around for a while
woohoo! thats ace news, obviously not about the falling, hoping your ok in every possible way. ONe tough bubba you got
utterly fabtastic that you are going ahead with all this, and that your mum knows, and James is being great with you wooosh on the scan too, so happy for you hun for you and bubba, how far are you?
12 weeks, which was a little bit of a shock as I didn't realise it was that much!
It was fairly painfull and I do now have some very attractive stiches across the side and front of my forehead but definatly worth it, for what it made me realise.
And James is so happy, he's getting excited already!
for you and bubba, how far are you?
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