i feel awful saying this cus i want and love my baby more than anything in the world,
but i just keep thinking back to how my life was before all of this happened and i really miss it,
its just not the same since iv been pregnant, my friends are MIA, and my social life has all but disappeared.
i will admit i was into drugs and drinking before i got pregnant, and im glad that thats stopped,
but i miss my life!!
i keep feeling sad about it just wish i could have one normal weekend with my friends and not have to worry, i know ill never be able to disappear for days on end as i did frequently before, or run off down the country for months like i have in the past,
i guess i wasnt ready for my life to be put on hold,
i feel so guilty for thinking like this but im sure im not the only one, and i know when i read this back tomorrow ill feel even worse,
i just need to get it off my chest,

Almost everyone that gets pregnant (no matter what their age or lifestyle pre-pregnancy) will at some point wonder "have I done the right thing?" and realise life will never be the same again.

It's normal to feel like this. Don't feel guilty x

I felt like this a lot. I sometimes still do. I wish I could go out and about whenever wherever I want and not have such huge responsibilities. But I love my little girl and when you have your baby, yes, you will still miss your life, but you won't be able to imagine it without them

I often think the same. There are times when I want my old life back. Where I could go out with my friends, mingle with a bunch of cute guys, and not have to think twice about the decision I make. But I have to tell you, my pregnancy has been really rough, and I have been told twice as of today that I have a high chance of losing the baby inside me. The pain that was brought along with those words have proved to me that I love this little baby inside me - even more then the life I used to have.

I sometimes miss the fact i can not just go out and drink loads and that i can not be out till Stupid 0'clock in the morning or go out at stupid 0'clock in the morning because its not safe really... The fact that even on private property with no other cars or people i feel unsafe doing 60/70Mph in a car i guess i could just say i miss the thrills and excitment and randomness of my life before.


But i wouldnt change being pregnant with my lil man for anything because i no he will be worth it and that he will be a good enoth reason to stop doing the stupid/silly stuff i did before and ill be more likely to enjoy just a glass of wine or Alcopop without wanting to get drunk.

Felt the same way hun and still do sometimes. I miss being able to do what I want to do, when I want to do it without having to worry about someone else constantly/act totally responsibly/get 2 people ready everytime I leave the house.

But I adore Elyse, and while I remember what life was like before, my life now is just as good, if not better

hey look ther is no need to feel guitly about this, i often think this and i was exactly like you i was on drugs an drinkin etc. that part of me i am glad to get rid of but all my friends have left appart from 2 who have always been ther for me. once your lil baby is born you wont care about that anymore cause you can just look at your baby and see them smile back at you. look at my sig it ses it all lol
xxxx

Aww Hun! Im Exactly The Same! I Loved Being Carefree, To Be Fair My Life Before Was Pretty Easy Going, Had It All Going For Me, I Can Drive, I Have A Good Monthly Income And Ive Got The Best Sexiest Boyfriend! Life Was Great. Going Out Of Oxford Clubbing, Quick Mindless Decisions To Go Partying Booking Hotels Last Min, Going Home @ Stupid O'Clock, Basically Pissing My Money Up The Wall. I Was Rather Independant I Always Have Been. And The Amount Of Tears I Cried Because I Was So Scared My Life Was Just Going To Come To A Holt, And My Best Mate Didnt Make It Easy For Me, Constantly Buyin New Dresses, Asking Me If Im Going Out, Telling Me How She Got So Drunk And Met This Boy, Writing On Her Facebook Who Wants To Come On Holiday With Me As Im Now Billy No Mates? It Made Me Feel Like Poo But Thinking About It, Im A Believer In Things Happen For A Reason, My OH Has Been Pretty Understanding And Is Soo Happy, Yes My Life Might Be On Hold For Now, But There Will Be Days And Nights Where I Get To Go Out, Being In A Good Position With My Family Being VERY helpful, And Also My OH'S Family, As Its Their First granchild, Baby To The Family. Im Sure Everything Will Turn Out Ok, Im Getting RID of Negative Thoughts And Cant Wait To Spend The Rest Of My Life Helping And Loving A Little Baby That I Created And Grew, Its Going To Be Hard, But Nights Where I Get To Go Out Ill Respect Alot More, And Money Wont Be Wasting On Over Expensive Alcohol!! Positive Thoughts!! =] xxx

Everyone has a moment when they feel like this. Missing their old life without responsiblities and with a lot of freedom.
But then again Lola brought so much in my life, I love her and wouldn't trade her for the world. Not even the fussy days.

I Do Have To Say Your Pic Does Say It All..What A Little Gem! x