LoraLoo

It makes 2007 seem even further away and I hate that it seems forever ago that I had Eve...memories fade, no matter how hard you concentrate on keeping them alive and it scares the hell out of me. Does anyone else feel the same?? Just sad tonight.

Lora xxxxx

serina27

I think thats why i feel the urge to be pregnant as soon as ive had a baby because there will always be a gap that nothing nowhere can fill ...I am so sorry xxx

LoraLoo

I'm broody already, have been since I had Amy, I'm not sure if its because i will never feel complete, even if i had 10 babies?? And thats so hard to accept, that i will never ever feel complete, i will never be able to be 100% happy because everytime i'm slightly happy i have this black cloud above me knowing Eve should be here, and also the guilt. I wish someone could answer these questions...sorry for such a depressing thread! xxxxx

RileysMummy

With me only loosing Riley just a month ago, im eager for 2010 to come as this year has been so hard, went from the best year of my life to the worse. But i understand what you're saying hun, i feel like im already forgetting certain things, not about Riley but for example, how it felt when he kicked, i may just be crazy but thats how it feels and i hate it.
xxx

lisa_33

i am sorry hun,i dont know what its like to be that far along the road, but i can imagine xxx i dont want it to come because last year i had everything to look forward to. first half of this year was the best in my life, next was the worst but i dont want it to end because i feel just now like there is no future.
lisa xxx

mamaxs4

My heart goes out to all of you...it's been 10 years since I lost Brandy Lynn, and I have found as time goes on it has gotten easier. The only thing is that I have had trouble bonding with my own daughter because of losing her....but then I think if Brandy had lived I might not have had my Sarah....oh, dear going down the what-if road again. Anyway, with the circumstances being what they where 10 years ago, sweet little Brandy may have died a worse death than what she did. Anyway, I never truly know what to say to other mothers after a loss. I try to think of what I might have liked to hear. But I can never really think of anything other than to offer my shoulder and say I know how you feel. I'm hear if you need to talk. I noticed you named your Amy Eve, that's such a beautiful thing. The next child I had I named him Brandon Joel (due to circumstances I had to give him up for adoption and his new parents named him Jude Brandon) I felt she deserved some sort of memorial. I would have never been able to move past some things if it hadn't been for my faith in Jesus. That has helped me more than anything!

jess_smurf

dont think your memories of your beautiful eve will ever fade xx

i was always thinking what happens when i have this baby will i want another straight away will i just want to be pregnant all the time as its all i have know for the last 18mths of my life

it just feels like the whole world had moved on and your still grieving for eve. I remember seeing the leaves fall off the trees was really hard for me as knew that the world was carrying on

not fair is it x x

Nosy_Cow

In a way I'm looking forward to 2010 because it's a new year and a fresh start but in a way I'm not.

Chloe would have been born last year not this year It's also her 6 month angelversary in January. 6 months! I can't believe it's gone so quickly!

You'll never forget Eve - she's such a beautiful baby and although you're life will never be complete you will meet again.

Oh and I too like the way you've named Amy Eve. We weren't going to name Chloe but we decided to name her so if we had another girl we could have Chloe as her middle name!

Tasha

Hey Lora Yes I feel the same, I find New Year's really traumatic, more so than christmas now I think. Each year makes me feel further and further away from Honey. It is very hard. I am also very broody have been since Kaysie B was born but cant seem to get pregnant and stay pregnant.

Huge understanding hugs

CHARLEYCLAN