babyell

It has been 11 days since we lost Harry, and today is the second day that I have been able to look at his photos without crying, just feel the sadness. (also went to church for the first time last night, even though I am so angry that God has done this to us, every week in silent prayer, I asked him to keep my baby and children healthy and happy, and he has done this to us, just feel whats the point in going?). Anyway I have hidden away long enough. I have built my courage up and am going to go to work to have a coffee with my boss (who is very understanding having also lost a baby at 17 weeks). I know I will cry there, but I need to get seeing them all over with. They have all been very supportive. Sending flowers, cards, and texts of support. I am setting off now so here goes.....

serina27

it may help but take things one step at a time xx

Bunnipowder

hope today is easy as can be for you

meldmac

Hope it went as well as it could

serina27

How did it go sweetie ? x

babyell

They were all great, some gave hugs and others just acted 'normal' with me, I chatted with my boss about Harry, and she was really supportive. She said I could coe in when I was ready, which is good to know. I kinda felt like it would do me good to go back, but I dont feel ready enough yet. Still have that feeling in my chest that I'm going to cry any second, but I dont think I have any tears left. So now sat at home feeling lost again, not knowing what to do with my day. Cant win

lisa_33

im glad it went well for you, just remember it is still very early days for you im much further down the line than you are and im still not ready to face work xxx

posh

I have made the decision to go back to work in January. Well, thats what I hope. You need to give yourself as much time as possible before going back to 'normality', don't rush anything. We are all here for you if you need to rant.