natp18

Hi Hun

I have just read your above post and 100% sympathise. I actually feel as though I am going insane too. I am now having serious panic attacks over if I can concieve again,still no AF or posative ovulation tests. Its so hard as I am grieving Lillie, worried about being able to concieve,it just seems as though someone of a higher power just wants to put us through it. I am so angry at the moment ,upset and actually feel I am loosing it. Like you,work is not an option as its manic at this time of year, I just wish my mind and energy was concentrated elsewhere. I feel so trapped in all this, like I geuss you are too. I just hope we all get to have more beautiful babys soonx

babyell

Oh hun, life is so cruel, as if losing our angels wasnt bad enough, now we have to wait for our bodies to get right before we can even think about trying again. I would love to get a BFP on xmas day, but I know it wont happen so soon. I too am paranoid that I wont be able to conceive again, I think because it would be my husbands 1st child, I am desperate to give him a baby, Im scared it wont happen. I am also 6 yrs older than I was, even though I am only 29 now, my mum went through menopause at 36, so I am so panicky. Feel like the clock is ticking. I keep telling myself that I will ovulate when my body is ready and healed. And the length of time it takes is needed for it to get back to normal. (doesnt make the waiting any easier though) I have everything crossed that we all get a BFP soon, and have beautiful, healthy 2010 babies x x x x