Its okay to not feel excited about the pregnancy, If im honest im not about mine too scared to get my hopes up I just can't 100% see me bringing her home. How can you be as excited as anyone else would be when the last time it all ended so sad. I know Il be so hapy once Im home and I feel like we are out of the danger zone but for now Im taking each day a step at a time. It was a real push for me to even look let alone baby stuff until I was around 20+ weeks I just dont want to set myself up for a fall I guess.
Im not saying I dont think my baby will be okay because deep down I think I have to stay positive and that surely it can't happen twice obviously there's a small part of me that thinks well what if it happens again, but I dont have the usual excitement and smiles other women in pregnancy do. But I know I love my baby girl to bits already.xxx
